its a daily chore to get out of bed. depression an loneliness hang like a huge cloud. going out getting around people only makes me feel more lonely and worthless.
doesnt help having no friends and no support system. people only offer lip service. it sucks when churches are filled with liars and hypocrites that shake your hand and start talking about you before you walk away.
ive felt like a worthless pos for years. losing my only friend - my amazing mother turned my world upside down. remaining family is married and only talks crap about me and lies like you cant imagine.
i was bullied harassed and messed with for over 6 years on my job. the torment these jerks put me through nobody should have to deal with. they finally got their way. the horrible jerk of a boss created drama and got me fired
ive considered ending it all so many times. this final straw just adds to it all. cry out to god people say. trust god he will meet all your needs. i dont remember if or when any of my prayers have been answered. i know i cant go on like this.
i saved up for years to buy a better car. now i have to sell it after getting fired.
life sucks and i learned how much people suck too. all my life i blessed people and helped them even when they didnt deserve to be. im the one needing help and so much more. honestly people dont seem to want to pray for others and the prayers havent really helped.
why keep praying or calling out to a god that is too busy to respond to his children.
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Let's continue to lift up Smilee for complete healing from surgery. "He sent His word and healed them" (Ps. 107:20). Praying for no stiffness, a strengthened and straightened knee, and a perfect walk. Trusting Jesus for a quick return to work. In His name! 
Smilee:
