But I have been totally challenged to a point of loosing all my faith. I now think maybe I have bipolar disorder because the more I have tried to walk upright with God, the far am lapsing back to desperacy, fear, sexual immorality and total despair. Life doesn't make sense right now, am crying to God all the time to take my life, I stay at home jobless, I even most of time fail to handle jobs, I feel maintaining a relationship is nearly to impossible. I actually need help. I love God and want to be a minister but am currently down in all ways. My faith doesn't glorify God