Anonymous
Beloved of All
As 2025 started, I came unto this realization that whatever life I thought I was building on my own, was not for me. God allowed me to go through what I went through for nearly 4 months, to show me that it was never meant for me.
And it hurts, so much. But God didn't allow me to linger there for long.
In those 4 months, I learned to love and let people in. Only for me to let them go just as quickly. And I wish I never had to let them go, at the same time, I wish I never met them. But I believe God wants me to know that regardless of their time in my life, they were there for a purpose. I will cherish them in my heart, but I know they cannot be with me where God takes me now.
Still, I can't help but cry and be angry over this. How much more must I love and lose before I love and win, God?
But I know. I know.
You are with me, Father.
And it hurts, so much. But God didn't allow me to linger there for long.
In those 4 months, I learned to love and let people in. Only for me to let them go just as quickly. And I wish I never had to let them go, at the same time, I wish I never met them. But I believe God wants me to know that regardless of their time in my life, they were there for a purpose. I will cherish them in my heart, but I know they cannot be with me where God takes me now.
Still, I can't help but cry and be angry over this. How much more must I love and lose before I love and win, God?
But I know. I know.
You are with me, Father.