Justbecause5
Disciple of Prayer
I just woke from a dream. In my dream, I saw ny children. I feel so weak. I miss them so much. I work in a few hours (4 pm - 12:30 am) . There are days that I just want to quit. I want to just stay in bed and never get out of it. Somehow, God gives me strength to keep moving. I don’t know why he allows me to live. When I think about what God has done; it gives me strength to keep going. Last August, I moved back to Alaska via an open door provided by God. I had no place to live and no car to drive and very little money. On the plane, I must have quoted 2 Cor 5:7 a 100x. Fast-forward To early February 2025 and I have a comfortable apartment that will cost me $1400 for 4 1/2 months and a reliable vehicle. I lost my job at the school due to no fault of my own but God gave me my full salary till the end of April. He also provided me a temporary job for 10 weeks. On December 29, I almost died in -23° weather when I got locked out of my car on top of the mountain all by myself. God spared my life. I have read the psalms 15 times since October 2023. This year my goal is to read the psalms at least once a month. I finished January on the last day. They have helped me so much and giving me so much strength and courage. Still, I have weak moments in days in which I feel hopeless. I can’t imagine there is a Christian on earth that praise more than I do but I still feel weak. I appreciate your prayers for me. Thank you. I do not know what God is doing in my life, but I know that my situation is a near parallel to Job. I keep praying God will take me out of all this and give me peace and strength. I see all the good that God has done and it gives me hope and strength going forward. Please continue to pray for me that my family will be reconciled. Please, God do something to turn things around. I’ve seriously contemplated moving so far away from Alaska, but there has been no open door. I am convinced from studying the psalms that is how God works. We pray and pray and pray and God opens the door And our faith causes us to walk through it. Last August, that’s what I did. The open door appeared and I walked through it.