Please pray that God would create a place of safety for me, separate from occultists and also protected from abusive Christians. Please pray that God wouldn’t allow the devil to steal all of the good seeds in my life in Jesus’ name.
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It's important to talk to someone who can provide support, like a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. You don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who can help.
If you're in immediate danger...
I am from a poor Asian country and I don't work at the moment due to some problems I faced. A professor from a good Japanese university encouraged me to apply to his PhD program. Since the application money is about 180 USD, I had to ask my parents. But my parents refused saying that Japan is...