AmandaStreet
Humble Servant
Yesterday, I believed God was going to give me the job I had prayed a year for, only to have my trust broken and my spirit shattered. I believed this position I already received as the scripture states ,,than it shall be mine. Only to suffer one more let down, but what hurts the most is the emptiness and confusion about everything I have believed and taught, being placed in route.. is God's word really true? Am I trusting in something that isn't there? My 8 yr old daughter said to me yesterday people who do bad things get the jobs and houses but you changed your life for God and stopped cursing, smoking, drinking,and you don't get the job you have been praying for telling us,God has for you, WHY? And My 14 yr old says she will believe when she sees God do something in our lives,because before I dedicate my life to Jesus last Sept,2012 our lives were better, we had money to pay the rent and the bills and back to school needs. Now we are on welfare,receiving food stamps and can't pay our bills which are all on disconnect status, and not a penny to purchase even shoes for my 3 children to start school with poet alone school supplies. We are as poor as they come and yet I still believe humbly that God's will and timing would be done in my life. My oldest daughter and her boyfriend had been led to church by my faith, but as it so happened all my friends and my daughter have turned from me and the church, and look at me crazy cuz I still believe and declare God has a job for me. But after yesterday of a year of believing and finally trusting in something and it still not being done. I give up praying for anything to change in my life this . Poverty struck life is what his purpose is for my life. From a broken heart!!!!