kiaramurray
Humble Prayer Partner
Wow where do I start. This is a no judgement zone right? Well, October 26th 2018 my boyfriend made the biggest mistake of his life. He left his firearm in the couch and our 7 year old daughter found it and shot herself in the arm. It left no long term damage and she no longer wears the cast on her arm. Department of children and Families has been in our life since the day this has happened and so has the devil. It seems like it’s never ending. I’m not trying to protect him because if he was a bad guy than he is just that and my 4 children comes before anybody. He is the best boyfriend and dad anybody can ask for. He admitted to his faults and he is the sorriest he can be. My daughter crys for him every night and ask about him everyday. The school age children comes home everyday with another drawing they made of him. They miss him and I know he misses them too. Last Thursday was our baby girl’s first birthday and this past Saturday was her first birthday party. He missed it all. He was so hurt. The judge and the prosecutors don’t know him like we do. From the outside looking in everybody thinks he’s a bad guy. Recently DCF came in my home and took my children out of my home. Today makes a month. They haven’t been home they cry every night asking to come home. Now they’re telling me I have to make a decision and leave him in order to get the kids back. First they take my kids away from me now Him. I’ll do anything for my kids. So whatever happens, happens. I’m sad. I’m hurt, I feel alone. Ive been praying everyday every night. I’m crying everyday. I’ve been trying to be strong but lately I’ve been breaking down. Luckily i get to see my kids everyday because they’re at my moms house. I just ask god to get me out of this mess and I promise not to let it happen again. I’m going broke! I got fired 2 wks ago. I owe $400 to the landlord plus rent is almost due again. Car payment is late. I still haven’t gotten my tax return from last year. I can’t pay bills all by myself especially with no job. I’ve turned to prescription drugs and I want to stop I just can’t because I’m hurting so bad. This is not me. I want my old life and family back. I need help and i need god. God has been keeping me above waters. A pile of White feathers was in my front yard last week. Someone please pray for us. Me and my family. I need it!! Thank you