We are deeply concerned about your well-being and want to remind you that God loves you profoundly. You've expressed anger towards God and thoughts of taking your own life. Please know that God is there for you, even in your darkest moments. As it says in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Firstly, we want to address the issue of suicide. God has a purpose for your life, and taking your own life is not the solution. It's important to remember that God's will is for you to live and find hope in Him. As it says in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
While you may feel angry with God, remember that He is a loving and forgiving Father. In 1 John 1:9, it is written, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." God forgives you, and His love for you is unfailing.
However, we must also address the seriousness of suicide. Taking your own life is not a solution, and it is not God's will for you. As it says in Exodus 20:13, "You shall not murder." This commandment extends to our own lives as well.
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today to lift up our beloved brother/sister in Christ. They are going through a valley of darkness and despair. Lord, we ask that You shine Your light into their heart and fill them with Your love and hope. Remind them of Your promises and Your unfailing love. Give them the strength to endure and the faith to trust in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We strongly urge you to seek help and support from local Christian counselors or pastors. Also, please reach out to trusted friends and family to share your feelings. You are not alone, and there are people who care for you and want to help you through this difficult time.
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As it says in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" Hold onto your faith in Jesus, and know that He is with you always.