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Haruss
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Recently i've lost my desire to worship Jesus, read the Bible, or even praise and thank him! I'm extremely worried! Plus, I was so tired I almost gave up being a Christian and I was just an inch away from becoming an athiest. I barely made it..but for 30 seconds I started searching for evidentce about if God is real or not etc...and I was angry with God, so angry that I accidently sinned, and blasphemed his name i called him an "a**h***", i'm scared because...is that the same thing as rejecting Jesus? I almost become an athiest, probably for maybe even a second I was if that's possible, but I woke up out of it, still...im scared...is that the same thing as rejecting Jesus? This has haunted me so much! Please help! I don't want to and never did want to reject Jesus, I was just so angry and I couldn't handle the doubts anymore! I just wanted to give up, but I barely didn't! Also being angry at God for a moment, that I accidently sinned...that's not the same as rejecting him is it?? These doubts are so serious that I cry about them, then I literally (sorry if it's disgusting...) start to throw up. I can barely sleep. I doubt my salvation. I doubt if God ever loved me. And those 2 memories haunt me everyday. Please pray for me! I need alot of comfort for this, and if it IS satan lie to me, I need comfort, he just wont go away, this is really discomforting for me, please pray for me!! (