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prayingmother
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As many of you might experience, work can be a stressful place to be. So many personalities that conflict. Well, today, per my request, I will be meeting with one of my supervisors and a fellow coworker. She had be spreading things about me, which weren't true, yet I hardly think it's petty. It involves the accusation of the wellbeing of one of our students. (I work in a school facility as a teachers' aide for severely handicapped children). Her accusations were taken like a grain of salt amongst everyone because most everyone knows me as a hard worker who cares deeply about the students and my job.
But this is the deal.......... my supervisor gave me a bad evaluation this year accusing me of "not getting along" with my peers and not being my cheery self all year long. The cheery part may be true because I've been dealing with a lot of emotional stuff all this school year that wasn't work related, but the "getting along" part is a joke. I am the most friendliest person there is in that classroom and can get along with just about everyone. As bizarre as this may sounds, he praises the workers that sit at a table all day, eating junk food and never speaking their minds about things that are morally correct when it comes to our students........ yet, I am one of less than a handful of workers who actually work 100%+ with out students and will protect them to no ends, because our students don't speak and most of them are in wheelchairs. I have learned to work with them well, and through God, feel I have a discernment of what's going on with them at times by reading their body language and facial expressions. I'm usually right on the money when it comes to understanding our students.
In our classroom, I am the only Christian. The others may be, but they aren't practicing Christians. Don't go to church. Use foul language on a daily basis (yes, even in front of the students). I lay hands on our students every chance I get. I read and sing to them and take that extra time with them to let them know how much they're loved and how important they are to me.
I feel that I am targeted because of what I do and who I am. Not so much of the fact that what circulates in the "gossip pool" is true, but because there is envy in that classroom because of the praises I get from my supervisor (from time to time) and others who notices the hard work and efforts I put into my job.
Please pray for favor for me. I feel a bit selfish in asking this, but because I am going to confront my coworker today about not appreciating the things she's been saying about me, in order to nip it in the bud, I don't want to feel intimidated. I want to come out as confident, professional and very reassured that I am doing the right thing and saying the right words. Especially, because who will be involved in this meeting is me, my supervisor (who gave me the poor eval) and the coworker (who's spreading lies about me). I feel as if I'm outnumbered in this whole scenario. However, I do feel that with God on my side, WHO CAN BE AGAINST, right?
Thank you for reading and taking the time to pray for this situation. It's not easy being the minority in the workplace, but I manage. Although, I allow The Lord to lead me everyday, which is why I do the things I do at work for the children (students) and feel very confident with my job performance, regardless of my evaluation. It's just that, this particular coworker receives favor from our supervisor numerous times (without ever earning it) versus my efforts everyday (yet having to deal with accusations and defending myself). It's very bothersome.
When I had my final evaluation with our top supervisor (who is above the classroom teacher-who gave me the poor eval), she asked me if there was anything I'd like to add to the comments that were made by the teacher. I was upset, yet at that time didn't fight it. I wanted to say things, but held them inside. Fighting fire with fire isn't particularly my style. The only dignified thing I said in my own defense to her was, "I wish you were a fly on the wall, so that you can see the whole picture and not just what you hear and take word of mouth at face value." She did not expect that response, but I think I made my point across without pointing fingers, without saying anything particular about anybody particular. She respected my feedback and I sense that she knew what she had read by the teacher was not all that truthful, yet she had already written the final in a copy cat manner. In years prior, I have always had perfect evaluations. Even from her. I don't know what's going on. It's almost as if I'm challenged to just sit around and feed my face all day like my other coworkers, in order to get a perfect evaluation now, rather than work hard and look after the students the way it's suppose to be.
I want that favor back. I want Christians to be the favored ones in their workplaces, not just for me, but for all of us. I want the raises, praises and bonuses. I want to move ahead, NOT fall behind, get laid off OR be accused and beaten down by words.
God bless you.
But this is the deal.......... my supervisor gave me a bad evaluation this year accusing me of "not getting along" with my peers and not being my cheery self all year long. The cheery part may be true because I've been dealing with a lot of emotional stuff all this school year that wasn't work related, but the "getting along" part is a joke. I am the most friendliest person there is in that classroom and can get along with just about everyone. As bizarre as this may sounds, he praises the workers that sit at a table all day, eating junk food and never speaking their minds about things that are morally correct when it comes to our students........ yet, I am one of less than a handful of workers who actually work 100%+ with out students and will protect them to no ends, because our students don't speak and most of them are in wheelchairs. I have learned to work with them well, and through God, feel I have a discernment of what's going on with them at times by reading their body language and facial expressions. I'm usually right on the money when it comes to understanding our students.
In our classroom, I am the only Christian. The others may be, but they aren't practicing Christians. Don't go to church. Use foul language on a daily basis (yes, even in front of the students). I lay hands on our students every chance I get. I read and sing to them and take that extra time with them to let them know how much they're loved and how important they are to me.
I feel that I am targeted because of what I do and who I am. Not so much of the fact that what circulates in the "gossip pool" is true, but because there is envy in that classroom because of the praises I get from my supervisor (from time to time) and others who notices the hard work and efforts I put into my job.
Please pray for favor for me. I feel a bit selfish in asking this, but because I am going to confront my coworker today about not appreciating the things she's been saying about me, in order to nip it in the bud, I don't want to feel intimidated. I want to come out as confident, professional and very reassured that I am doing the right thing and saying the right words. Especially, because who will be involved in this meeting is me, my supervisor (who gave me the poor eval) and the coworker (who's spreading lies about me). I feel as if I'm outnumbered in this whole scenario. However, I do feel that with God on my side, WHO CAN BE AGAINST, right?
Thank you for reading and taking the time to pray for this situation. It's not easy being the minority in the workplace, but I manage. Although, I allow The Lord to lead me everyday, which is why I do the things I do at work for the children (students) and feel very confident with my job performance, regardless of my evaluation. It's just that, this particular coworker receives favor from our supervisor numerous times (without ever earning it) versus my efforts everyday (yet having to deal with accusations and defending myself). It's very bothersome.
When I had my final evaluation with our top supervisor (who is above the classroom teacher-who gave me the poor eval), she asked me if there was anything I'd like to add to the comments that were made by the teacher. I was upset, yet at that time didn't fight it. I wanted to say things, but held them inside. Fighting fire with fire isn't particularly my style. The only dignified thing I said in my own defense to her was, "I wish you were a fly on the wall, so that you can see the whole picture and not just what you hear and take word of mouth at face value." She did not expect that response, but I think I made my point across without pointing fingers, without saying anything particular about anybody particular. She respected my feedback and I sense that she knew what she had read by the teacher was not all that truthful, yet she had already written the final in a copy cat manner. In years prior, I have always had perfect evaluations. Even from her. I don't know what's going on. It's almost as if I'm challenged to just sit around and feed my face all day like my other coworkers, in order to get a perfect evaluation now, rather than work hard and look after the students the way it's suppose to be.
I want that favor back. I want Christians to be the favored ones in their workplaces, not just for me, but for all of us. I want the raises, praises and bonuses. I want to move ahead, NOT fall behind, get laid off OR be accused and beaten down by words.
God bless you.