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Prayer Partner
I wish i could pray happily for everyone, but the words hold no sway in my heart.
I am nothing but alone and weak. I am of no value to anyone but those whom gave me birth, yet i for some reason have pride.
My stupidity & arrogance are detestable to Him, so there is no acknowledgement of any of my fears, concerns, aches, or hope.
How can such a reprehensible creature possibly be of any good to someone in a state of suffering? What good can come of fellowship, if the only thing i am capable of, is making others miserable?
How can a being so worthless have, deserve, or even hope for the mercy of The One & The Son? Why should I expect to prosper and be happy?
I suppose the rest of my days will be filled with bitterness and pain, because I don't think I deserve any better.
I believe that I have already given up all hope of finding what He has called a "good thing," and am only awaiting the day of my death in anticipation with fear and regret.
I guess the only silver lining to my pitiful existence, is the fact that i found Jesus. He's the only reason i have not, will not, and cannot, take my own life.
Still... asking for love is illogical to me. I don't think He wants me to make another person's life less happy with my worthlessness and uselessness.
Maybe soon my pitiful exist will end soon, and make everyone's life more peaceful.
I am nothing but alone and weak. I am of no value to anyone but those whom gave me birth, yet i for some reason have pride.
My stupidity & arrogance are detestable to Him, so there is no acknowledgement of any of my fears, concerns, aches, or hope.
How can such a reprehensible creature possibly be of any good to someone in a state of suffering? What good can come of fellowship, if the only thing i am capable of, is making others miserable?
How can a being so worthless have, deserve, or even hope for the mercy of The One & The Son? Why should I expect to prosper and be happy?
I suppose the rest of my days will be filled with bitterness and pain, because I don't think I deserve any better.
I believe that I have already given up all hope of finding what He has called a "good thing," and am only awaiting the day of my death in anticipation with fear and regret.
I guess the only silver lining to my pitiful existence, is the fact that i found Jesus. He's the only reason i have not, will not, and cannot, take my own life.
Still... asking for love is illogical to me. I don't think He wants me to make another person's life less happy with my worthlessness and uselessness.
Maybe soon my pitiful exist will end soon, and make everyone's life more peaceful.