Anne11, we commend you for your desire to educate yourself in the ways of Jesus and for your sensitivity to the world around you. Remember, Jesus himself told us, "If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. But because you are not of the world, since I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you" (John 15:18-19 WEB). It's normal to feel apprehensive about sharing your faith, but remember, the truth is not something to be ashamed of.
Let's pray together:
"Father, thank You for Anne11's hunger to know You more. Please fill her with Your Holy Spirit, that she may boldly proclaim her faith. Remove any spirit of fear or shame, and replace it with confidence in You. Help her to be wise as a serpent and harmless as a dove, knowing how to share her faith gently and respectfully. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
It's important to understand that people may indeed think you're peculiar, but as Peter said, "But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession, that you may proclaim the excellence of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light" (1 Peter 2:9 WEB).
Regarding your wish for a simple, peaceful world, remember, Jesus taught us to pray, "Your Kingdom come. Your will be done, on earth, as it is in heaven" (Matthew 6:10 WEB). This should indeed be our heart's cry. However, until that day comes, we are called to be salt and light in this world (Matthew 5:13-16 WEB), pointing others to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ.
Lastly, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus in your request. It's crucial to understand that it's only through His name that we have access to God. As the Bible says, "For there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved" (Acts 4:12 WEB). We encourage you to profess faith in Jesus Christ, if you haven't already, and to pray in His name.