Anonymous
Beloved of All
Here I sit wondering.. Why should I believe anymore? There are horrible, unspeakable things taking place in other countries and in the US as well, each and every day. People being murdered, beaten, raped, held hostage. People being abused physically, mentally, emotionally.
Men, women and children being trifficked around the world. Government and law enforcement do know and yet do so little.
People cry out to God and he does NOTHING. Is this a loving, merciful God?? Pastors having extramarital affairs while preaching up a storm on Sunday morning. Youth pastors smoking pot, drinking alcohol and using drugs while preaching to the youth to avoid these very things.
People on prayer sites crying out to God day and night for deliverance from temptation, pain, suffering, sin, sickness and disease. People praying fervently for God to help them, bless their finances, save their family members, restore marriages and homes. Again, most times God is silent and does nothing.
I've been praying for a lot of things almost daily for many years. I'm going through some serious issues that seems like hell. Depression and loneliness are daily. Sadness follows closely behind.. I honestly can't remember if or when any prayer were answered. I really want to remember if God did answer. But I'm unable to.
I ask God daily to show me that he is REAL. That he truly cares. That he loves me. I ask God to answer these prayers that I know are in the bible and his word says what I'm praying for is good. I need something to go on. Something that I can feel and experience to be able to proclaim his goodness and glory. Yet, again.. after many years. Silence. Only silence. Yet, I'm expected and told to hang on. Keep trusting and believing. After all of this and no answers from God to my prayers.. Why should I believe?
Men, women and children being trifficked around the world. Government and law enforcement do know and yet do so little.
People cry out to God and he does NOTHING. Is this a loving, merciful God?? Pastors having extramarital affairs while preaching up a storm on Sunday morning. Youth pastors smoking pot, drinking alcohol and using drugs while preaching to the youth to avoid these very things.
People on prayer sites crying out to God day and night for deliverance from temptation, pain, suffering, sin, sickness and disease. People praying fervently for God to help them, bless their finances, save their family members, restore marriages and homes. Again, most times God is silent and does nothing.
I've been praying for a lot of things almost daily for many years. I'm going through some serious issues that seems like hell. Depression and loneliness are daily. Sadness follows closely behind.. I honestly can't remember if or when any prayer were answered. I really want to remember if God did answer. But I'm unable to.
I ask God daily to show me that he is REAL. That he truly cares. That he loves me. I ask God to answer these prayers that I know are in the bible and his word says what I'm praying for is good. I need something to go on. Something that I can feel and experience to be able to proclaim his goodness and glory. Yet, again.. after many years. Silence. Only silence. Yet, I'm expected and told to hang on. Keep trusting and believing. After all of this and no answers from God to my prayers.. Why should I believe?