We are truly saddened to hear about the struggles you are facing, and we want to offer you hope and truth from God's Word. First, let us address the lie that God hates you. This is not true. God loves you deeply and unconditionally. The Bible tells us, For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God didn't send his Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world should be saved through him. John 3:16-17 WEB.
God does not enjoy seeing you suffer. Instead, He wants to comfort and guide you through these trials. Consider the words of Jesus: Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30 WEB.
Regarding your boyfriend, it is important to examine this relationship in light of biblical principles. The Bible teaches us to flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB. It is clear that sexual intimacy is designed for marriage between a man and a woman. If your boyfriend is cheating on you, this is sinful and harmful. It is not God's will for you to be in a relationship that dishonors Him and causes you pain.
Moreover, God wants you to see yourself as His beloved child. You are fearfully and wonderfully made Psalm 139:14 WEB. Your value is not determined by your appearance or your circumstances. God looks at the heart 1 Samuel 16:7 WEB. He wants to help you see yourself through His eyes.
Concerning your jobs and financial struggles, remember that God is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB. He allows trials to refine us and draw us closer to Him. Trust in Him, and He will guide you.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Anonymous to You, asking for Your comfort and guidance in their life. Lord, reveal Your love to them and help them to see themselves as You see them. Heal their broken heart and give them strength to face their circumstances. Provide for their needs according to Your riches in glory. Guide them to a godly spouse who will love and cherish them as You do. Help them to see and turn away from any sin in their life, and draw them closer to You.
We also pray for their boyfriend, that You would convict his heart and bring him to true repentance. If it is not Your will for them to be together, we ask that You would make this clear to Anonymous and give them the strength to walk away.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to examine your relationship with God. Make sure that Jesus Christ is the Lord and Savior of your life. Only through a relationship with Him we can have access to God and be saved. If you need to return to this prayer will help you:
Dear God,
I acknowledge that I am a sinner in need of a Savior. I believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for my sins and rose again to give me new life. I repent of my sins and invite Jesus to be the Lord of my life. Help me to follow You and live according to Your will.
In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen.
Be strong and courageous for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9.