Syleyreansil
Disciple of Prayer
God says he delights in blessing us but all I've just been getting is bad news.
6 years since I've graduated from college and I can't get or keep a decent job or stable place to live. I was working minimum wage for $### an hour which almost hospitalized me. Quit and was so broke I had to live in section 8/HUD housing. From there was harassed by ghetto people and reported it and the landlord and neighbors tried to ruin my life with severe bullying and taking me to court even when I was innocent with no criminal records and they were seasoned convicts but the police and judge chose to believe them.
Left section 8 and moved to another place. The landlord wanted to sleep with me and I said no and then I had to move because he wanted to take me to court.
Got a new job and was persecuted for degree and looks. Was working 2 jobs seven days a week and barely getting any sleep. Left 1 of the jobs and stuck with the other was sexually harassed by a female coworker and the manager penalized me and fired the coworker to keep their hands clean. Later on they fired me when I called out the hypocrisy for rehiring an employee that was known for harassing people.
Got another job and the manager lied she would give my resume to HR as I was overqualified for retail and I should work corporate. She never did but instead started making snide comments about my looks
Got another job with a so-called Christian company who called me a slave because of my skin color and I was not allowed to pray the way I wanted but let other denominations practice their faith. When I reported it to HR they fired me.
Living in a place now where my housemates also persecute me for my looks and being Christian.
On top of that I'm in debt because the section 8 building is saying I owe $### in rent which is a foolish lie as evidence proves otherwise and I'm working with lawyers.
I had to lie to get money to pay April's rent. Applied to over ### jobs no good news. I have no friends, no family to rely on. I have not seen my brother in ### years because I can't even afford a bus ticket or plane ticket to see him
I went from having my own car to having to ride the bus. Couldn't even finish masters education cause I had to drop out of school due to stress. Was on medication when I was being bullied in section 8. I was sexually assaulted by a ghetto homeless man and the prosecutor refused to press charges because she said it's hard to prove his motive even though he is a seasoned criminal.
I just hate God at this point cause I can't catch a bloody break. Ever since I gave my life to God ### years ago my life has just become worse. Make progress, then it's taken away. It's not like I don't tithe so why is God letting the devil eat my harvest. Today is my ###th birthday and supposed to be ### years of me being a Christian but at this point I don't even know if it's worth it. How can I be educated and can't even put food on the table through no fault of mine. Now I'm about to have $### of debt extra because the stupid salon I was supposed to do my hair at on my birthday said I have to pay full price to cancel because I gave them less than 24 hours notice when I don't have a bloody dime to pay.
I don't even know how I'll pay May's rent. My former classmates who are living in sin are making over $###,### a year with their degrees. My resume is just embarrassing and sad. Why choose God when I'm left to suffer. Isn't it better for me to just be in this world and at least have money to supply my basic needs. Will I forever have to rely on food pantries and thrift stores to put something on my back.
Why was I prosperous before God and now in poverty knowing God. I just hate him and hate my life.
6 years since I've graduated from college and I can't get or keep a decent job or stable place to live. I was working minimum wage for $### an hour which almost hospitalized me. Quit and was so broke I had to live in section 8/HUD housing. From there was harassed by ghetto people and reported it and the landlord and neighbors tried to ruin my life with severe bullying and taking me to court even when I was innocent with no criminal records and they were seasoned convicts but the police and judge chose to believe them.
Left section 8 and moved to another place. The landlord wanted to sleep with me and I said no and then I had to move because he wanted to take me to court.
Got a new job and was persecuted for degree and looks. Was working 2 jobs seven days a week and barely getting any sleep. Left 1 of the jobs and stuck with the other was sexually harassed by a female coworker and the manager penalized me and fired the coworker to keep their hands clean. Later on they fired me when I called out the hypocrisy for rehiring an employee that was known for harassing people.
Got another job and the manager lied she would give my resume to HR as I was overqualified for retail and I should work corporate. She never did but instead started making snide comments about my looks
Got another job with a so-called Christian company who called me a slave because of my skin color and I was not allowed to pray the way I wanted but let other denominations practice their faith. When I reported it to HR they fired me.
Living in a place now where my housemates also persecute me for my looks and being Christian.
On top of that I'm in debt because the section 8 building is saying I owe $### in rent which is a foolish lie as evidence proves otherwise and I'm working with lawyers.
I had to lie to get money to pay April's rent. Applied to over ### jobs no good news. I have no friends, no family to rely on. I have not seen my brother in ### years because I can't even afford a bus ticket or plane ticket to see him
I went from having my own car to having to ride the bus. Couldn't even finish masters education cause I had to drop out of school due to stress. Was on medication when I was being bullied in section 8. I was sexually assaulted by a ghetto homeless man and the prosecutor refused to press charges because she said it's hard to prove his motive even though he is a seasoned criminal.
I just hate God at this point cause I can't catch a bloody break. Ever since I gave my life to God ### years ago my life has just become worse. Make progress, then it's taken away. It's not like I don't tithe so why is God letting the devil eat my harvest. Today is my ###th birthday and supposed to be ### years of me being a Christian but at this point I don't even know if it's worth it. How can I be educated and can't even put food on the table through no fault of mine. Now I'm about to have $### of debt extra because the stupid salon I was supposed to do my hair at on my birthday said I have to pay full price to cancel because I gave them less than 24 hours notice when I don't have a bloody dime to pay.
I don't even know how I'll pay May's rent. My former classmates who are living in sin are making over $###,### a year with their degrees. My resume is just embarrassing and sad. Why choose God when I'm left to suffer. Isn't it better for me to just be in this world and at least have money to supply my basic needs. Will I forever have to rely on food pantries and thrift stores to put something on my back.
Why was I prosperous before God and now in poverty knowing God. I just hate him and hate my life.