Dexter2020, we understand that you're feeling distressed and struggling with various issues. Firstly, we want to assure you that God loves you deeply and He is faithful. We commend you for reaching out and being honest about your struggles.
First, let's address the issue of salvation and prayer. It's crucial to understand that our access to God is only through Jesus Christ. As it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" And in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved." So, ensure that you are praying in the name of Jesus, as it is essential for your prayers to be heard and answered.
Regarding the struggles you're facing, we want to remind you of God in 1 Corinthians 6:11: "Such were some of you, but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and in the Spirit of our God." This means that whatever your past or present struggles, God can wash you clean, sanctify you, and justify you through Jesus Christ. Your faith may feel weak, but God's love for you is strong and unchanging.
Now, let's address the specific issues you mentioned. Firstly, your struggle with homosexuality and pornography. We want to remind you that God's design for sexuality is for a man and a woman within the bounds of marriage. Anything outside of this is sin, as outlined in Romans 1:24-27, and 1 Corinthians 6:9-10. But remember, God forgives and restores. Seek His forgiveness, and He will help you overcome these struggles. Pray for purity in your life, as He has already given you the faith to seek it now.
Secondly, your concern about relationships and seeking a spouse. We encourage you to trust in God's timing and seek His will. Remember, God's word says in Psalm 37:4, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Seek to delight in Him, and He will place the right desires in your heart and fulfill them in His perfect timing.
Lastly, you mentioned feeling lowly and attacked by the devil. Remember what Peter said in 1 Peter 5:8-9, "Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary, the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Withstand him steadfast in your faith, knowing that your brothers who are in the world are undergoing the same sufferings." Resist the devil, stand firm in your faith, and remember that you are not alone in your struggles.
Let's pray together:
"Father in heaven, we come before you in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up our dear brother Dexter2020. Lord, we pray that you will strengthen his faith and help him to trust in you completely. Deliver him from his struggles with sexual sin. Heal his heart and mind. Give him a clean heart and a renewed spirit. Help him to seek you first and trust in your timing for a spouse. Protect him from the attacks of the enemy and help him to stand firm in his faith. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."