junkyjanine
Prayer Partner
I had the worst day today like you all know as you read my other prayer request going through financial difficulties I work for a place where I get paid a little and dont even have money the day after I get pd then I have to lend money by other people for transport and food and to get to work and this cycle carries on and on. I am married for twenty years and not ever in my married life have my husband ever given me from his wages I don't even know how much he earns. But when I get pd I must buy food and see to small stuff because he says that he sees to the bond and sees to the kids so I must buy food.he always telling me what to do with my money but never dare question him on what he does with his.I have a son who started casualing at a retail store and he gets pd every Monday he gave his dad from his wages which I never saw and this morning he asked his dad to come fetch him as there is no transport on a Saturday then he asked him if he has a fifty rand for petrol then my son said no then he started shouting at me and my son saying that we don't care about what he must go through to put petrol in that car he told me that he must pay my other sons registration fees and I just don't care I just think about myself and then I said it's fine he don't have to fetch me go fetch my son and he just carried on shouting at me like it's all my fault that we going through financial difficulties. I am So hurt as I was still sleeping when this happen and my son just slammed the door and left. We not speaking to each other at the moment that money that I borrowed yesterday to go and work today I through petrol in his car so that he can come fetch me he doesn't even care,about that. We never open about our finances to each other we always do things secretly and I am so hurt deep down to think that I also sacrificed for my kids and him and this is the thank you on got this morning. It happens all the time we always having major arguments about finances or I will ignore it just to keep the peace but it's never been solved. I am so hurt I feel like everything is my fault and to top it up every time I must go lend money by people. The little little warn never last when can can bless someone I'm so depressed I'm giving up up can't anymore I'm tired of this battle.
