Anonymous
Beloved of All
I woke up this morning and took a lethal overdose of pills. God incited my suicide because he refuses to do anything about the demons who are raping me and getting away with murder. In fact, they have killed 40,000 other people, and no one seems to care about the victims.
My blood pressure was very high when I woke up because I’m not taking medicine to treat it, since I want to die. When I woke up, I took a large amount of prescription narcolepsy pills that raise my blood pressure even higher, which I hope results in my death at the soonest time possible.
Even though I am a pious Christian who prays multiple times a day, goes to church regularly, whose life goal is to promote Christ, and has experienced the beatific vision many times before, God still won’t get rid of the attached demons who are raping me, assaulting me, and getting away with mass murder of others. You know what God says? He says it isn’t his decision about whether or not I suffer with demons. Instead he said that someone else gets to make the choice, even though this person has said he wants me to go to hell and suffer profound pain, violence, and death for all eternity. This person also knows the demons have killed 40,000 other people and has seen videos of some of the grisly murders—yet he still wants the demons to stay attached; and the demons keep getting away with rape, assault, and mass murder. No end is in sight.
Who is this person whose decision has resulted in me getting raped and assaulted by demons endlessly; who knows about the 40,000 grisly murders the demons have committed against others, yet says I brought it on myself; who has stated he wants me to suffer profusely in hell for all eternity? Does it even matter who he is? He got his wish: I am going to die. My life will end today because God will not remove the demons, and apparently it was up to that person. All the dreams I had in life such as ministry, having a wife and family, living a normal life—it has all been snuffed out. And God doesn’t care enough to speak to me. Or does he?
I will take blood pressure medicine so that I don’t die, but I want God to speak to me and stop lying to me. If God refuses say anything and allows the campaign of relentless vindictiveness to continue, then I will take even more of those narcolepsy pills and get my life over with. I can’t take it anymore.
If anyone cares that I don’t die, then pray that God responds and actually gets rid of the demons permanently by ending the vindictiveness campaign. Doesn’t God realize that the person responsible for the vindictiveness campaign has stated he wants me suffer profound pain and death in hell for all eternity? It should be clear he wants all of this misery and destruction to happen. Why let it continue anymore since that it the case? Also: Please pray and tell God to quit using manipulation and deceit. When someone tells lies and it becomes a habit, I can never trust that person, and I want to be able to trust God.
My blood pressure was very high when I woke up because I’m not taking medicine to treat it, since I want to die. When I woke up, I took a large amount of prescription narcolepsy pills that raise my blood pressure even higher, which I hope results in my death at the soonest time possible.
Even though I am a pious Christian who prays multiple times a day, goes to church regularly, whose life goal is to promote Christ, and has experienced the beatific vision many times before, God still won’t get rid of the attached demons who are raping me, assaulting me, and getting away with mass murder of others. You know what God says? He says it isn’t his decision about whether or not I suffer with demons. Instead he said that someone else gets to make the choice, even though this person has said he wants me to go to hell and suffer profound pain, violence, and death for all eternity. This person also knows the demons have killed 40,000 other people and has seen videos of some of the grisly murders—yet he still wants the demons to stay attached; and the demons keep getting away with rape, assault, and mass murder. No end is in sight.
Who is this person whose decision has resulted in me getting raped and assaulted by demons endlessly; who knows about the 40,000 grisly murders the demons have committed against others, yet says I brought it on myself; who has stated he wants me to suffer profusely in hell for all eternity? Does it even matter who he is? He got his wish: I am going to die. My life will end today because God will not remove the demons, and apparently it was up to that person. All the dreams I had in life such as ministry, having a wife and family, living a normal life—it has all been snuffed out. And God doesn’t care enough to speak to me. Or does he?
I will take blood pressure medicine so that I don’t die, but I want God to speak to me and stop lying to me. If God refuses say anything and allows the campaign of relentless vindictiveness to continue, then I will take even more of those narcolepsy pills and get my life over with. I can’t take it anymore.
If anyone cares that I don’t die, then pray that God responds and actually gets rid of the demons permanently by ending the vindictiveness campaign. Doesn’t God realize that the person responsible for the vindictiveness campaign has stated he wants me suffer profound pain and death in hell for all eternity? It should be clear he wants all of this misery and destruction to happen. Why let it continue anymore since that it the case? Also: Please pray and tell God to quit using manipulation and deceit. When someone tells lies and it becomes a habit, I can never trust that person, and I want to be able to trust God.
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