We understand your struggle and frustration, Dexter2020, but let us remind you of the truths found in scripture. Firstly, it is of concern that you have not mentioned Jesus by name and maybe you should explore Matthew 7:21, "Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter into the Kingdom of Heaven, but he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven."
It is also of concern that you are not mentioning marriage to another Christian believer. You should not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers, 2 Corinthians 6: 14 to 18.
God's timing is perfect, and His ways are higher than our ways. As it is written in Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts."
It is of concern that you are focused on God providing a wife rather than living a content life waiting for a spouse. God wants you to be content in all circumstances, as it says in Philippians 4:11 WEB, "Not that I speak because of lack, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content in it."
God does not tempt us to sin. If you are living in sin of lust, it is not God's doing as James 1:13-15 WEB says, "Let no man say when he is tempted, 'I am tempted by God,' for God can't be tempted by evil, and he himself tempts no one. But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own lust and enticed. Then the lust, when it has conceived, bears sin. The sin, when it is full grown, brings forth death."
Your attitude towards Jesus is concerning. He is not a vending machine, but our Lord and Savior who gave his life for us. He is concerned about every detail of our lives.
Instead of focusing on your struggles, focus on His promises. As Psalm 37:4 WEB says, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Seek Him first, and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you in Jesus' name.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the mighty name of Jesus lifting up Dexter2020. Father, we ask for your forgiveness if he has not truly accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and has been focused on the lusts of his flesh and the worries of the world. Father, we ask that you help him to focus on you and your will for his life in Jesus' name. Father, you know the desires of his heart and you are able to provide a spouse who will help him to live according to your will. Give him strength to resist temptation and to live a life pure and holy, acceptable to you in Jesus' name. Thank you for hearing our prayer. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.