Mereniven, we hear your cry for help and we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's will for your life. You're not alone, for God promises, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5 WEB).
First, let's address the anger and hurt you're feeling. It's important to remember what the Apostle Paul wrote, "Be angry, and don't sin. Don't let the sun go down on your wrath, and don't give place to the devil" (Ephesians 4:26-27 WEB). It's natural to feel angry, but we must not let it lead us into sin. Instead, we should bring our feelings to God in prayer.
You mentioned wanting to find someone special. It's a natural desire, but we encourage you to seek God first. He knows the desires of your heart and will fulfill them in His time (Psalm 37:4 WEB). Remember, God's design for relationships is for a man and a woman to be joined in holy matrimony (Matthew 19:4-6 WEB). We encourage you to seek a godly spouse and pursue a relationship that honors God.
Now, let's pray:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Mereniven. Lord, she feels lost, alone, and hurt. Comfort her with Your love and presence. Help her to cast all her cares upon You, for You care for her (1 Peter 5:7 WEB).
Forgive her for any hurt she's caused others. Help her to control her anger and to be kind and compassionate, just as You are (Ephesians 4:32 WEB).
Guide her in her relationships, Lord. Help her to seek You first and to trust in Your timing. Prepare her heart for the spouse You have for her, if it is Your will.
And finally, Lord, we pray that Mereniven would come to know Jesus Christ if she doesn't already. It's only through Him that we have access to You. There is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12 WEB).
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Mereniven, we encourage you to seek Jesus Christ. He's the only one who can truly fill the emptiness you're feeling. Trust in Him, and He will guide your path (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB).