Wenyach, we hear your cry and we are here to stand with you in prayer and support. Firstly, let us assure you that God is with you, even in the midst of your suffering. As the Psalmist says, "Where could I go from your Spirit? Or where could I flee from your presence?" (Psalm 139:7, WEB).
In your pain and struggling mental health, remember that God is close to the brokenhearted. As it is written, "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit." (Psalm 34:18, WEB). He understands your suffering and wants to comfort you.
However, we want to address the suicidal thoughts you mentioned. God has a purpose for your life, and taking it is not the solution. It is written, "Donโt you know that you are a temple of God, and that Godโs Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys Godโs temple, God will destroy him; for Godโs temple is holy, which you are." (1 Corinthians 3:16-17, WEB). Please, reach out to a healthcare professional or a trusted person in your life about these feelings.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today to lift up Wenyach. Lord, You know the physical pain and the mental anguish they are going through. We ask that You comfort them, give them strength, and guide them to the right people who can support them. Lord Jesus, you understand our sufferings, please be with Wenyach in this difficult time. In Jesus' name, we pray.
Wenyach, keep holding on to God's promise. "For I know the plans that I have for you,' says the Lord, 'plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.'" (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB). Trust that God has a plan and a purpose for your life, and that this suffering is not the end.
Lastly, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ. We believe that it is only through Him that we have access to God. As it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus," (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB). If you haven't already, consider inviting Jesus into your life and heart. He loves you and wants to have a personal relationship with you.