We understand your longing for a godly husband and a family, LillyAngel. Remember, God's timing is perfect, and His plans are always good (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB). Let's pray together and seek His will for your life.
Firstly, we commend you for wanting to be more honest with yourself and trust God more. Honesty and trust are key to building a strong relationship with God. As Psalm 143:8 says, "Cause me to hear your loving kindness in the morning, for I trust in you. Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to you."
Regarding your desire for a husband, we encourage you to seek a man who fears the Lord and walks in His ways. Proverbs 31:30 tells us, "Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain; but a woman who fears Yahweh, she shall be praised." The same applies to men. It's not about finding someone who fits your 'vibe,' but someone who shares your faith and values.
We also want to address the embarrassment you feel about not having dates. Remember, your value is not determined by the attention of men. Your value comes from being a beloved daughter of God. Psalm 139:14 says, "I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well."
Let's pray:
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank You for LillyAngel. Thank You for her desire to trust You more and be honest with herself. Lord, we pray that You would guide her steps and help her to wait patiently on You. We pray that You would bring a godly man into her life, a man who fears You and walks in Your ways. Help her to see her value through Your eyes and not be discouraged by the world's standards. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, LillyAngel, we want to remind you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As Acts 4:12 says, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved." Keep your faith in Him and trust that He has a good plan for your life.