DonnaT
Beloved of All
When the enemy came against me, I could have stopped and prayed for God's guidance and believed He would help but instead I left each scenario. I did this not once but multiple times. I let the hurt take over and fled. I didn't want to hear what they had to say. I did not trust that God would give me the words to speak that I needed to keep from being destroyed by them. I don't think I was wrong to feel hurt or unsupported. I truly know what I was doing did not justify the behavior they chose towards me, but because I didn't want to endure the suffering and patiently wait for an opportunity to present my case/side and gain support, I am now suffering the most. There are many things I am unable to get back, and it's no one's fault but my own. I lost my kitties, my family, my home, jobs, and most of my personal belongings that God gave me. I'm sorry, Jesus, I have failed. Lord, please have mercy on me and grant grace to me and stop the delay of my future success and give me a clear sign as to how to proceed, move forward, and what opportunities to pursue. In Jesus' name I ask. Amen.