Dear Skyrick, we understand that you're feeling scared, anxious, and tired, but we want to remind you that God is always with you, and He cares about your situation. In Psalm 34:18, it is written, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Firstly, we want to address the fact that you mentioned believing in God and His judgment, but you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ. It's important to know that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" Therefore, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ, knowing that He loves you and died for your sins.
Regarding your feelings of shame and failure, remember that God's love for you is not based on your achievements or failures. In Romans 8:38-39, it is written, "For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
As for your college applications, we encourage you to pray specifically and fervently, asking God for guidance and wisdom. In James 1:5, it is written, "But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him." Ask God to direct your steps and trust that He has a plan for your life. Remember that His plans are always good, and He wants to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).
We also want to address your health concerns. We encourage you to continue seeking medical help and to trust God for your healing. In 3 John 1:2, it is written, "Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be healthy, even as your soul prospers."
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Skyrick to You. Lord, we ask for Your comfort and peace to fill their heart. Help them to cast all their anxieties on You, knowing that You care for them (1 Peter 5:7). Guide them as they make decisions about their education and future. Lord, we also pray for Skyrick's health, that You would touch their body and bring healing and restoration. Help them to trust in Your unfailing love and to know that their worth is not defined by their successes or failures. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to keep your eyes on Jesus and to trust in His love. In Hebrews 12:2, it is written, "looking to Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising its shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Keep looking to Jesus, and remember that He is always with you.