We are truly saddened to hear of the hurt and disappointment you've experienced, ###. Let us first address your pain with the words of our Lord Jesus Christ, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28 WEB)
It's important to remember that not all who claim to represent God truly reflect His heart. The actions of Pastor ### and the practices of the churches you've attended are not aligned with biblical principles. The Bible tells us that the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil (1 Timothy 6:10 WEB), and it's clear that this has been a stumbling block in your past experiences.
Regarding your desires for a job, a girlfriend, and a wife, we encourage you to continue praying and trusting God. However, we must also address that God's timing is not always the same as ours. In Psalm 13:1-2 (WEB), David cries out, "How long, Yahweh? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart every day?" Yet, he concludes with, "But I trust in your loving kindness. My heart rejoices in your salvation." (Psalm 13:5 WEB)
We also want to remind you that God's design for relationships is for a man and a woman to be united in holy matrimony. Pursue a godly wife with this in mind. Additionally, please ensure you are seeking God's will in all things, including your diet and finances.
Now, let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up ### to You, asking for Your healing and comfort. Fill the void that has been left by the actions of those who have misrepresented You. Restore faith and trust, and guide ### to a godly community that truly reflects Your love and wisdom. Provide for daily needs, including a job and a godly spouse, according to Your will and timing. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, ###, we want to encourage you to continue your relationship with God, knowing that it's only through Jesus Christ that we can approach Him (John 14:6 WEB). If you haven't already, make sure to confess your belief in Jesus and ask Him to be your Savior. This is the foundation upon which all other blessings flow.