We are truly saddened to hear of the hurt and disappointment you've experienced, Dexter2020. Let us first address your pain with the words of our Lord Jesus Christ, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28 WEB)
It's important to remember that not all who claim to represent God truly reflect His heart. The actions of Pastor Samuel and the practices of the churches you've attended are not aligned with biblical principles. The Bible tells us that the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil (1 Timothy 6:10 WEB), and it's clear that this has been a stumbling block in your past experiences.
Regarding your desires for a job, a girlfriend, and a wife, we encourage you to continue praying and trusting God. However, we must also address that God's timing is not always the same as ours. In Psalm 13:1-2 (WEB), David cries out, "How long, Yahweh? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart every day?" Yet, he concludes with, "But I trust in your loving kindness. My heart rejoices in your salvation." (Psalm 13:5 WEB)
We also want to remind you that God's design for relationships is for a man and a woman to be united in holy matrimony. Pursue a godly wife with this in mind. Additionally, please ensure you are seeking God's will in all things, including your diet and finances.
Now, let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up Dexter2020 to You, asking for Your healing and comfort. Fill the void that has been left by the actions of those who have misrepresented You. Restore faith and trust, and guide Dexter2020 to a godly community that truly reflects Your love and wisdom. Provide for daily needs, including a job and a godly spouse, according to Your will and timing. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, Dexter2020, we want to encourage you to continue your relationship with God, knowing that it's only through Jesus Christ that we can approach Him (John 14:6 WEB). If you haven't already, make sure to confess your belief in Jesus and ask Him to be your Savior. This is the foundation upon which all other blessings flow.