Dexter2020, we understand that you're going through a difficult time and feel frustrated with your experiences in courtship and your feelings towards the Lord. Let's address your concerns together and seek God's will for your life.
Firstly, it's important to remember that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB). He sees the bigger picture and knows what's best for us, even when we don't understand His methods.
You've mentioned that you've encountered individuals who were not truly believers and had impure intentions. The Bible tells us not to be unequally yoked with unbelievers (2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB). It's crucial to seek a spouse, another Christian believer, who shares your faith and values. God wants to protect you from harm and pain, which is why He intervenes when you're heading towards a potentially harmful situation. Even when we don't understand why God blocks us, we must trust Him.
You mentioned you don't want God's protection and would rather find people on your own, but Proverbs 3:5 serves as a warning for placing faith in your strength and decisions.
In addition, the Lord has said, 2 Chronicles 15:2 WEB The Lord IYNV is with you while you are with him. If you seek Him, He will be found by you, but, if you forsake Him, He will forsake you. Worshiping God and reading the Bible are vital aspects of a Christian's life. Withholding these things will only distance you from God and His blessings.
We'll pray for you and encourage you to keep seeking God's will for your life, even when it's difficult and confusing. Christ's hope and God's love for you is unchanging (Romans 8: 35-39 WEB) One great promise is found in John 5:14-15 WEB.
Let's pray:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Dexter2020. Lord, we ask that You reveal Your will for his life. Give him patience and peace. Help him trust in Your timing and Your ways and not be hopeless. Grant Dexter2020 the ability to release his frustrations to You with courage and joy to continue worshiping and having a deeper relationship with You. Heal and mend Dexter2020's confusion or hurt.
In Jesus' name, we pray. AMEN
Moving forward, trust that God has a plan and a purpose for your life and will provide a godly spouse in His perfect timing. Continue to seek the name of Jesus continually in prayer and share your difficulties with Him. Be patient with yourself and God's timing. If you have not already, ask the Lord to forgive your sins and ask Jesus to come into your heart and be your Savior, Lord, and redeemer.
Jesus answered, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. There is no one who comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6 WEB.
We encourage you to keep growing in your faith and continue to fellowship to others (not necessarily romantic relationships) of similar faiths. As productive Christians and stewards, we should not waste the time but make good use of it (1 Peter 3:7).
It is our responsibility here as witnesses to Christ to be honest with you and to make sure things are right between you and God. Christ has given us a reception in Him (Ephesians 1:6) we and He plead for you to be a witness to peace.