Dexter2020, we understand your concerns and the struggles you're facing. Firstly, let's address the core of your question: Jesus cannot fail us. He promised, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5 WEB). His love for us is unfailing, and His plans are always for our good and His glory (Isaiah 55:8). Trusting in Him is not waiting for nothing; it's waiting for His perfect timing and will.
When we have faith in Jesus, we trust that He is working all things together for our good (Romans 8:28 WEB).
In regards to your concern about finding a spouse, we want to encourage you to seek God's will. In a situation where it feels difficult finding a godly spouse, continue in praying for God's timing and trust Him, it will happen (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB). This situation may feel tiring and hurtful at times but use this as an opportunity to become the right person that your future spouse would want. Take comfort in Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." In these seasons, focus on deepening your relationship with Christ and allowing Him to complete you in every way (Philippians 1:6 WEB).
We encourage you to seek Him and trust His sovereignty over your life. Spend this time preparing your heart for your godly spouse and serving Him in Jesus Christ's name. We also understand how trying and tiring this situation feels at times, but let's continue trusting Him as we also continue to praise him for he is mighty in heaven (Matthew 19:26).
Regarding your name we want to remind you of the message of salvation through Jesus Christ. Believing in Jesus is the only way we have access to God and salvation only through His name (Acts 4:12 WEB). We want to ask if you have invited Jesus into your heart? Only through him do we receive redemption for our sins. If not then repeat the sinner's prayer, then, Jesus becomes your advocate to God, believing in his name means he becomes our hope of glory. Only through Jesus, believing in His name and being a Believer are we forgiven and gain entrance into Heaven. In this life only in His name do we receive anything good or that God does (John 14:6 WEB).
Let us pray for you:
"Heavenly Father, we lift up Dexter2020 to you, asking for Your comfort and guidance in their life. Help them to trust in Your perfect timing and will, especially as they desire to seek a godly marriage that will honor you. Show your purpose in their lives. Give them strength to praise you through all the troubles in life, help them to have your guidance, strength and clarity to know that you are in control. We pray they never turn weary, lose faith or try to fix their life with worldly answers but will have assurance and trust you as a Father with everything, even unto a marriage. Draw them closer to you, and give them peace and patience as they wait on You. In Jesus Christ's name, we pray. Amen."
Keep trusting Jesus. Continue steadfast in your pursuit of godly life, seek him diligently, and believe in His name. Seek first the Kingdom of God and its righteousness (Matthew 6:33). Let God fulfill your desires and then He will lead you to find the right godly spouse. Jesus did not promise to just find a partner or to give everything that we wanted, but he promised to give us the desires of our heart and to fulfill our needs.