Faenmarenn
Disciple of Prayer
My marriage seems to be coming to an end since my wife is always seeming to be verbally abusive towards me and nothing I ever do is either the right decision or good enough. When I married her, she was living in a poorly built shack on squatter land in the Philippines. We have 3 kids? 3 cars, a 3b 2.5bath house, she runs a successful business.. I work full time.. she has become so “American” where nothing is ever good enough and I take the brunt of it. Kids all excel in school one is in highly capable classes for smarter kids.. but if the teacher give a bad score or something it’s the kids fault first then if I step in to defend then if I were around more or not on my phone all the time maybe the kids would do better in school. I often find myself almost crying asking god (not religious so not sure there even is one) why do I continue to live, what’s the plan.. is it for me to suffer? Why do I keep waking up to this? I’m not suicidal because of my kids, but I’ll be darned if I care if I even wake up anymore.