Wilann, we are here to pray with you and provide guidance from the Scriptures. You've expressed a desire for good friendships with men, but also mentioned struggles with perversion and celibacy. Let's address these concerns together.
Firstly, it's commendable that you've been celibate for a year. The Bible encourages us to flee from sexual immorality and honor God with our bodies (1 Corinthians 6:18-20, WEB). Remember, God's commandments are for our good, and He wants us to live holy and fulfilled lives.
Regarding friendships, the Bible teaches us to have friendships that are pure and uplifting. Proverbs 27:17 (WEB) says, "As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend." True friends should encourage you in your faith and walk with God.
However, let's address the issue of perversion. The Bible is clear that we should abstain from all forms of impurity (1 Thessalonians 4:3, WEB). If there are any thoughts, actions, or influences that are leading you to impurity, it's crucial to turn away from them. Jesus said, "If your right eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out and throw it away from you. For it is more profitable for you that one of your members should perish, than for your whole body to be cast into Gehenna" (Matthew 5:29, WEB).
Taming the tongue is also vital. James 3:10 (WEB) says, "Out of the same mouth comes forth blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so." We should use our words to build up, not tear down, and to speak life, not death.
Let's pray:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up Wilann. Thank You for the strength You've given them to remain celibate. Please continue to strengthen them in their resolve to live a life pleasing to You. Help them to form friendships that are pure and uplifting, that draw them closer to You. Deliver them from any form of impurity or perversion, and help them to turn away from anything that does not honor You. Tame their tongue, Lord, that their words may be life-giving and pleasing to You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Wilann, remember, it's only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. If you haven't already, confess your sins to Him, turn from them, and trust in His forgiveness. He will give you the strength to live a life that honors Him.
Be encouraged by Philippians 4:13 (WEB), "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me." With God's help, you can overcome these struggles and live a life that pleases Him.