Anonymous
Beloved of All
Why do I have such a terrible husband? What did I do wrong? If he decides to leave, I hope he does it soon. I hope he moves all at once, and I never want to see him again. I hate him. I regret the day I met him. He is the worst thing that ever happened to me. I hope he gets everything he deserves as soon as possible. I hope that the people who hurt me regret it. I hope I am forgiven for my parts in the mess, and I want to change. I do not know what I am doing wrong. I want to stop thinking about them. I want to get use to being alone. I want to find some place that I can go and afford to live. I need benefits, but I really do not have a reason or purpose to live. I am a waste of space. I wish I never existed. The only humans who ever loved me was my father and twin sister. I want to forget the bad memories. I want to grieve the loss of my dreams. I had a terrible marriage. These have been the worst years of my life. It is all my fault. My life is terrible, but it could be so much worse. This is the sad part. I give up. My husband is a coward and a snake. I never should have listen to my father. I hope my husband lives to regret all the pain he caused. I hope he feels alone since he does not carry about anyone. I wish he could see me in love and happy with a real man. I want to experience a real and romantic relationship once in my life. I hate my husband, but it costs too much to live alone. If he is using me and plans to cause me harm, I hope he suffers immediately. He and his children are selfish. It makes me sick. He is a poor excuse for a man. He needs to see me with a real one, so he can see the difference. If he walks out that door, I will move on as soon as possible. I hate him. I hope he is punished for his mistakes. I hope he finds someone who treats him as badly as he treated me. I hope he feels pain from my hate when he sees my face. I hope my silence and absence burns and stings.