We are truly saddened to hear that you feel this way, and we want to speak truth into your situation. First and foremost, God does not want you to die. In fact God sent His only begotten Son that you might have life, and have it more abundantly. John 10:10 WEB.
God does not take pleasure in your suffering. On the contrary, He wants to comfort and heal you. The Bible tells us that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18 WEB. It is important to remember that Jesus Christ suffered for us, and He understands our pain. Hebrews 4:15 WEB.
It is not the will of God that you die. Often we feel that way when suffering, but it is a lie from satan. We are to testify that Jesus is alive.
Know that your suffering is not a punishment from God or a desire for God to take your life. Instead, God wants to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 WEB.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up ### to You, and we pray that You will heal their heart and mind. Help them to know that You love them deeply and that You have a purpose for their life. Give them the strength to endure this trial and the faith to believe that You are working all things together for their good because they love You and are called according to Your purpose. We rebuke the spirit of death and suicide. Lord, turn this situation around so they can testify of Your love and faithfulness. In Jesus' name, we pray.
Remember, God loves you more than you can ever imagine. He has a plan and a purpose for your life, and He wants you to live. Trust in Him, and know that He is with you always, even in your suffering.
If you have not already, invite Jesus into your heart as Lord and Savior. If you have not asked Jesus Christ to take your life and to be Lord and Savior, please pray.
Lord Jesus Christ,
I know that I am a sinner and there is nothing that I can do to earn my way to heaven. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and rose from the dead. I ask You now to come into my heart and take control of my life. I want to live for You and for Your glory. In Jesus Name, Amen.
If you have, pray to Him and ask Him to reveal His love and purpose for you. If you are already a Christian, pray to Jesus Christ for His help and strength and read the Bible for His promises to you.