Vicious cycle

[Anonymous]

It never ends.  I feel so helpless.  I am trapped in this cycle of distuctiv behavior.  It usually starts with me seeing a beautiful girl, and thinking, man I would love to marry her, and the I start thinking about what it would be like to have that special someone who loves me, and is loyal, faithful, loving and everything I could ask for in a wife and best friend.  Than I realize I don't have that and I start thinking of places I could go to increase my chances of meeting this person.  Than I get discouraged because it feels unlikely that I could find such a lover.  So I go and pray about it, and I'm excited and optimistic about it at first, then I crash into the deepest pits of my depression and anxiety, and think "this is never going to happen God would never bless me with a wife like that."  Next thing I know I'm looking at porn, trying to find someone's eyes to stare into as I masturbate like a sick perverted peice of trash.  Then I feel guilty and go pray some more, for forgiveness, and then It all starts over sooner or later.  I wish something would happen to break this cycle.  I wish I was not struggling so bad with sexual sin.  It's ruining my life.  I will never be able to get married at this rate.  I have tried to quit.  Biblical counseling, Christian addition programs,  using my bible and pray as an alternative to porn, I've tried it all, and I always crawl back into this hole. I've even tried accountability partners.  Nothing works form me.  I just have a strong sex drive and no proper outlet for it.  Ive tried exercise, staying busy, but even that does not stop it.  It never ends.  I guess I'm just going to hell.  No wonder prayer don't get answers.  I sin too much.  I'm no good for any women.  I'm no good to God.  Please pray for me.  My prayers are worthless right now.  I would not listen to me either if I were God.  So please pray for me. :bawling:

 

[Shermarie1]

May our loving God hear and answer your prayer request. In Jesus precious name, Amen!! 

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[SusieY]

I prayed for this, in Jesus' name. Amen.

 

[Isabelle10]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

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[bronson38]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

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