We understand your urgent request and the desires of your heart. First, let's address the financial aspect:
"Therefore I tell you, don't be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn't life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don't sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns, and your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you of much more value than they? Which of you, by being anxious, can add one moment to his lifespan? Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient." Matthew 6:25-34 WEB.
We pray that God will supply your needs according to His riches in glory. We also pray for your patience and peace, knowing that God is in control of every situation, including financial ones.
Regarding your relationship with ###, we hear your desire for unity, love, and companionship. It's clear that you long for a deep, intimate connection with ###, and we encourage you to pursue this in a godly way. However, it's crucial to remember that God's design for marriage is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman, and any romantic relationship should be moving toward that goal. It's good to see you want to be soul mates and best friends.
"Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn't have another to lift him up. Again, if two lie together, then they have warmth; but how can one keep warm alone? If a man prevails against one who is alone, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken." Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 WEB.
"Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the assembly, being himself the savior of the body. But as the assembly is subject to Christ, so let the wives also be to their own husbands in everything. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it;" Ephesians 5:22-25 WEB.
However, we must address that it's not biblical to desire or pray for the destruction of other relationships, even if they are not romantic. Instead, focus on building your own relationship with ### in a godly way.
"Don't return evil for evil. Recompense evil with good. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men." Romans 12:17-18 WEB.
We pray that God will bless your relationship with ###, that He will give you both wisdom and guidance, and that He will draw both of you closer to Himself and each other. We pray that God will give you both a desire to pursue a godly marriage.
You end your submission mentioning Jesus, however we must stress the importance of the name of Jesus Christ.
"For 'whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.' How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed? How will they believe in him whom they have not heard? How will they hear without a preacher?" Romans 10:13-14 WEB.
"Behold, I give you the authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy. Nothing will in any way hurt you. Nevertheless, don't rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven." Luke 10:19-20 WEB.
We pray that both of you will call on Jesus' name believing in him.