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Hello, I've had many problems w my health this year. I had a simple groin lymph node biopsy in February and it caused me to have 12 abscesses. I even had to have a wound vac out in my groin. It will not heal. Its now came back even bigger (the abscess) & I can barely walk. The pain is excruciating even with my strong pain meds. Im probably going to have to call an ambulance & go to the ER & also have it surgically removed again since its the size of a large baseball. Im only 47, but feel 87. Im exhausted all the time & my rheumatoid arthritis is so bad, I now have to wear gloves to keep my thumbs from popping out. I've lost hope. I've lived my whole life trying to be good & empathetic to others. I'm also the only 1 out of 10 siblings to inherit our dads genetic blood clotting disorder. My siblings & I don't get along or speak to each other much. Theyre the opposite of me. Not to sound too judgemental, but they lie, steal, cheat w married ppl, are vain & greedy & yet theyre all fine. I just feel like its so unfair. Why am I the only 1 bad things happen to, when Im the least sinner? I pray for them all the time, but Im so down & feel so let down. I don't understand why their lives are easy & they never have any of the stress or problems that Ive always had? They get away with a lot. I don't wish them any ill will, I just don't understand why its always me? I feel let down by God & am constantly asking why I have to go through all that Ive had to go through? What did I do to deserve this, when Ive lived my whole life trying to be a good person? Im living w my mom w my 17 yr old daughter cause Im too sick to work & my SSI is taking forever to go through. I just want a home of our own & everything is just so hard. Im losing hope more each day. Please please pray for me/us. Thank you all kindly.