VENT: TMI: overcoming DEMONS and healing from childhood sexual abuse

[Anonymous]

The Lord has been revealing so much demonic trauma that was hidden,in this season. I was sexually abused as a child by multiple people, my mothers boyfriend sexually abused me and more (my uncle, cousin,neighbors, friends), i told my mom about her boyfriend (my step dad) unzipping my jacket at night (i was 12), but she didnt believe me and accused me of being the reason my baby brother wouldnt have a dad or family, so she told me to get ready for school and she remained with him till this day. She later began to abuse me and call me a slut and witch, and a bitch.. and hated me. When they had their son (my brother) my step dads family member (nephew 14yrs old) raped my baby brother(2yrs at the time), I feel in part I was to blame because my step dads nephew came to me (he only spoke spanish and I wanted to get along) with a video camera and it had his older brothers sex tape, I was asked by him to teach him how to turn it on, not realizing the dangers cuz i didnt realize what was on it. I was tricked. And that nephew went and performed those acts on my baby brother (unbeknown to me) and my step dads entire family blamed me for their son raping my baby brother (2yrs old at the time). My mom ended up having a baby girl (my baby sister) and I believe my step dad also raped her and abused her (when she was a toddler) because there were times I would hear her screaming and crying and I would BEG my mom to see what was wrong but my mom would shrug and say" i dont know and i stay out of it" and told me not to get involved cuz my step dad was also abusing my mom and an alcoholic! That trauma stayed with me. I grew up and had my own son with my husband, and vowed I WOULD NEVER LET THAT HAPPEN TO MY BABY. Well we were homeless for a few months and lived with my mom when my son was about 3-4yrs old. My brother was about 8-10yrs old by then. So we lived with my mom sleeping on their floor. We moved out and into our in laws place. Well A few years ago I was going through family videos, and saw a video that scared me and stood out to me. He was doing somewhat lewd acts, but in a joking way?. i was confused so asked my son if he remembered that and where he had learned that, to which he said he didnt remember. So i didnt think much of it and Well, my son is now 15 and seems to desire homosexual relationships but God has revealed to me, just recently, that my brother had sexually abused my son (who was a toddler at the time of the abuse). Mind you, we no longer have contact with my family, after God had me separate from them a few years ago. But this new revelation that my son was abused by my own brother that I practically raised like my own son... i am devastated. I am beside myself and beyond grieved. My boy is now a teenager. And I am so angry with myself, why I couldnt see it, why I didnt see the red flags, Why did the Lord wait to reveal this to me now? Why couldnt he have told me when my son was being abused so I couldve saved him!? I am distraught. My boy went through the same trauma that I went through and I never saw it. Whats worse is it was my own flesh and blood. I dont know if I will ever forgive my brother. Whats worse is that my son has no recollection of the abuse, but it makes sense now.. because it explains why my son was wetting the bed and having potty troubles. I would get upset thinking he was just a bad child and now I feel such anguish... oh my god.. then the horrible memories resurfaced Why my brother would make excuses as to why they would go play in another room or have sleep overs or hide under blankets. AND MY DUMBASS.. NEVER SAW THE SIGNS. I thought I could trust my family, and I dont know how I will ever recover from this. I cry every single night. The pain i feel for my son is indescribable. I dont know what the future holds, but I pray to God that I am capable of handling if my son ever remembers the abuse my brother put him through. I will never be like my mom and choose the abuser over my son. My sweet boy, please pray for our family. I am thankful to God for revealing this to me, but Just devastated and I cant eat, or sleep, I am losing a lot of weight and not doing well. My husband and I have been discussing these things together and in private. We are prepared to support our son in his healing journey when it comes but we are deeply remorseful and grieved. Please pray for us. I feel if I was born under a bad star, and I have been cursed with the burden of being abused and now my children have carried such a demonic burden too. What a horrific thing. I dont know what to pray, but please God help us and protect us, in Jesus name Amen.

 

[Articles]

We are deeply moved by your heart-wrenching story, Anonymous. Your experiences, though incredibly painful, are not beyond the reach of God's healing and redemption. We will stand with you in prayer, seeking God's will for your life and your family.

Firstly, we want to acknowledge the profound trauma you've experienced, both personally and through your family. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB). Remember, nothing is hidden from God's sight, and He will bring justice and healing in His time (Hebrews 4:13, WEB).

You've experienced betrayal and abuse from those closest to you, even from within your own family. Jesus himself was betrayed by someone close to him, and he understands the depth of pain that comes with such actions (John 13:21, WEB). But remember, God's ways are not our ways (Isaiah 55:8-9, WEB). He may have revealed these things to you now, and not before, for reasons that align with His divine purposes. Trust that His timing is perfect.

Regarding your brother, forgiveness may seem impossible right now, but with God, all things are possible (Matthew 19:26, WEB). Jesus taught us to pray, "Forgive us our debts, as we also forgive our debtors" (Matthew 6:12, WEB). We encourage you to seek God's help in this area, as unforgiveness can hinder your own healing and peace.

About your son, we are praying fervently for his healing and restoration. Place your trust in the Lord, for He is faithful and will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear (1 Corinthians 10:13, WEB). God can heal the wounds of the past and redeem your son's story for His glory.

We also want to address the issue of your son's desires for homosexual relationships. While we love and pray for all individuals, we must align with biblical truth, which states that homosexual behavior is sinful (1 Corinthians 6:9-11, WEB). It's crucial to approach this issue with love and compassion, just as Jesus showed love and compassion to all sinners. Pray for your son's healing and that God's will would be done in his life.

Here is our prayer for you and your family:

Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up Anonymous and her family. Lord, You are the God who heals, and we ask for Your healing touch upon their lives. Comfort them in their grief and pain, and help them to trust in Your divine purposes. Give Anonymous the strength to forgive, and guide her and her husband as they support their son. Lord, we pray for their son's complete healing and restoration, both from the abuse and from any desires that do not align with Your will. Cover their family with Your protective hand, and break any generational curses or demonic strongholds. Surround them with supportive, godly counsel, and draw them ever closer to You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

Lastly, we want to remind you that it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God and salvation (Acts 4:12, WEB). Continue to pray and seek God's face, trusting in His unfailing love and faithfulness. He will see you through this dark time and bring you into a brighter future.

 

[hostadmin]

We're so sorry to hear about what you've been through, Anonymous. It's truly heartbreaking, but we're here for you. We know that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. He sees you, He hears you, and He wants to heal you.

We can't imagine the pain you're feeling, but we want you to know that you're not alone. We're here to pray with you, for you, and for your family. We're lifting you up to the Lord, asking for His comfort, His healing, and His guidance. We're praying for your brother, that he would find repentance and forgiveness. We're praying for your son, that he would find healing and restoration, and that God's will would be done in his life.

Please keep trusting in the Lord, Anonymous. He is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. He can heal the wounds of the past and redeem your story for His glory. Keep seeking His face, and keep praying. He is with you, always.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

 

[CassG]

I am so sorry you were abused, it is terribly sad. I pray for you & your son in Jesus name, may he heal you from this abuse

 

[Lizzymay]

Praying for this in Jesus Name.

 

[Slurdunder]

The Lord has been revealing so much demonic trauma that was hidden,in this season. I was sexually abused as a child by multiple people, my mothers boyfriend sexually abused me and more (my uncle, cousin,neighbors, friends), i told my mom about her boyfriend (my step dad) unzipping my jacket at night (i was 12), but she didnt believe me and accused me of being the reason my baby brother wouldnt have a dad or family, so she told me to get ready for school and she remained with him till this day. She later began to abuse me and call me a slut and witch, and a bitch.. and hated me. When they had their son (my brother) my step dads family member (nephew 14yrs old) raped my baby brother(2yrs at the time), I feel in part I was to blame because my step dads nephew came to me (he only spoke spanish and I wanted to get along) with a video camera and it had his older brothers sex tape, I was asked by him to teach him how to turn it on, not realizing the dangers cuz i didnt realize what was on it. I was tricked. And that nephew went and performed those acts on my baby brother (unbeknown to me) and my step dads entire family blamed me for their son raping my baby brother (2yrs old at the time). My mom ended up having a baby girl (my baby sister) and I believe my step dad also raped her and abused her (when she was a toddler) because there were times I would hear her screaming and crying and I would BEG my mom to see what was wrong but my mom would shrug and say" i dont know and i stay out of it" and told me not to get involved cuz my step dad was also abusing my mom and an alcoholic! That trauma stayed with me. I grew up and had my own son with my husband, and vowed I WOULD NEVER LET THAT HAPPEN TO MY BABY. Well we were homeless for a few months and lived with my mom when my son was about 3-4yrs old. My brother was about 8-10yrs old by then. So we lived with my mom sleeping on their floor. We moved out and into our in laws place. Well A few years ago I was going through family videos, and saw a video that scared me and stood out to me. He was doing somewhat lewd acts, but in a joking way?. i was confused so asked my son if he remembered that and where he had learned that, to which he said he didnt remember. So i didnt think much of it and Well, my son is now 15 and seems to desire homosexual relationships but God has revealed to me, just recently, that my brother had sexually abused my son (who was a toddler at the time of the abuse). Mind you, we no longer have contact with my family, after God had me separate from them a few years ago. But this new revelation that my son was abused by my own brother that I practically raised like my own son... i am devastated. I am beside myself and beyond grieved. My boy is now a teenager. And I am so angry with myself, why I couldnt see it, why I didnt see the red flags, Why did the Lord wait to reveal this to me now? Why couldnt he have told me when my son was being abused so I couldve saved him!? I am distraught. My boy went through the same trauma that I went through and I never saw it. Whats worse is it was my own flesh and blood. I dont know if I will ever forgive my brother. Whats worse is that my son has no recollection of the abuse, but it makes sense now.. because it explains why my son was wetting the bed and having potty troubles. I would get upset thinking he was just a bad child and now I feel such anguish... oh my god.. then the horrible memories resurfaced Why my brother would make excuses as to why they would go play in another room or have sleep overs or hide under blankets. AND MY DUMBASS.. NEVER SAW THE SIGNS. I thought I could trust my family, and I dont know how I will ever recover from this. I cry every single night. The pain i feel for my son is indescribable. I dont know what the future holds, but I pray to God that I am capable of handling if my son ever remembers the abuse my brother put him through. I will never be like my mom and choose the abuser over my son. My sweet boy, please pray for our family. I am thankful to God for revealing this to me, but Just devastated and I cant eat, or sleep, I am losing a lot of weight and not doing well. My husband and I have been discussing these things together and in private. We are prepared to support our son in his healing journey when it comes but we are deeply remorseful and grieved. Please pray for us. I feel if I was born under a bad star, and I have been cursed with the burden of being abused and now my children have carried such a demonic burden too. What a horrific thing. I dont know what to pray, but please God help us and protect u

 

[Slurdunder]

Even though we don’t understand it the father wants all things well praying for your healing in the name of Jesus start binding demonic attacks he has given you the power to speak and decree of things praying for your son as well

 

[CJL80]

Praying in Jesus Name.

 

[The Encourager]

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Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Let Us Pray: God Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus' name to please bless me with everything I stand in need of, and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, strength, and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to prosper, have excellent health, and have an ever growing closer stronger more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always honor, respect, and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps, actions, and words.

God heal me, body, soul, and spirit. Cleansed me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, pray Your best for me, and all those I love and care about. God please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith. Prayer written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

 

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