I have been crying all day from much stress
this is the first time i can write to all of you
I have been offered a possible soo beautiful
Miracle Apt in a lovely private 2 family house
but i do not know if this real estate broker is leading me on like they
soo often do regarding my rent subsidy & the acceptance of it by
the landlord & all i can do is pray God reveals the truth to me imediately
At the same time today i was offered 2 possible apts in a building that
has questionable living conditions, a bad reputation, & bad tenants
& it seems everyone keeps moving out & no one stays for very long
{ that is called a revolving door rental situation }
but it would be a roof over my head for now so that i am not homeless
the building is where Pastor Raul my dear friend is the superintendent
& Howard is the landlord/owner who appears very kind but has his hands full...
the ground floor apartment floods when it rains & is very un-safe
the girl who lives there is leaving because she always has to
put sandbags by the front door to try to prevent constant flooding
the 2nd floor apartment is 2 flights of stairs on the outside & i have
a severe lower back injury that makes stairs very difficult for me
and will make my lower back even worse
Pastor Raul & Howard recommend the 2nd floor apt to avoid flooding
My doctor told me to take whatever i can get at this point & then
just keep looking for yet another apt but i am trying to avoid that difficult & stressful scenario
because my finances are very very limited & my health has gone downhill severely from an over 10 year housing search crisis that has pretty much destroyed me in every way...i am barely hanging on...
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOD'S PERFECT WILL IS VERY SOON
AND IF GOD IS GOING TO GIVE ME ""A MIDNIGHT HOUR HOUSING
MIRACLE"" IN THAT LOCAL PRIVATE HOUSE APT IT HAS TO BE CONFIRMED
BY THAT LANDLORD WHO SHOULD ALSO MEET ME IN PERSON & THEN SPECIFIC PAPERWORK MUST BE FILLED OUT IMMEDIATELY ON MY BEHALF
BY THAT LANDLORD FOR THE AGENCY WHO STILL REPRESENTS ME SINCE HURRICANE SANDY TO SHOW SINCERE & HONORABLE INTENTIONS
IF THAT IS NOT DONE THIS COMING WEEK WAY BEFORE THURSDAY
IT WILL BE TOO LATE FOR ME TO RENT IT
IN MY HUMBLE ESTIMATION...
i am trying to make a very wise & responsible decision under extremely very stressful circumstances and tremendous pressure & stress every day now
i have to get this right...i can't afford a mistake here...I JUST CAN'T...
SO I SEEK THE LORD'S HELP NOW TONIGHT IN EARNEST PRAYER...
All i can do is see how circumstances line up with this potential new rental
& how the Hand Of God moves in this whole situation for me
i am getting constant attacks emotionally
and spiritually about all of the decisions i was forced to make in the past & still am while being threatened by soo many real estate brokers landlords and agencies...just because they can and i was and still am always at their mercy...and also...
I keep second guessing myself & it is tormenting me even though i covered everything with soo much prayer to God every single day & searched
tirelessly every day for many many many years now...
i am always soo scared
i often feel like a failure and very much soo all alone
this was not the cross i would have ever chosen to bear
or the trial that i would have ever chosen to endure
but life happens & i do the best that i can to survive
HOW EVER YOU FEEL LED BY THE HOLY SPIRIT TO PRAY FOR ME
PLEASE DO...PLEASE...THANK-YOU SOO MUCH EVERYONE
THIS UN-EXPECTED NEW MIRACLE APT OFFER WOULD BE A FINAL PERMANENT LOCAL MOVE FOR ME UNTIL I GET TO HEAVEN WITH DADDY--GOD & JESUS...
IT IS A MAGNIFICENT ONCE IN A LIFETIME OPPORTUNITY
BUT ONLY GOD CAN GRANT ME PERMISSION TO HAVE IT
AS I HAVE ASKED HIM ONLY THIS...THAT HIS PERFECT WILL BE DONEIN THIS WHOLE MATTER FOR ME...
GOD HAS TO MAKE THIS FINAL DECISION FOR ME BY GRANTING ME
FAVOR WITH EVERYONE INVOLVED ON MY BEHALF AND HELP ME TO MAKE
IT ALL WORK OUT WITH EVERYONE INVOLVED
THIS IS EITHER OF HIM AND AN OPEN DOOR
OR...
IT IS NOT OF HIM AND IS A CLOSED DOOR
ALL I CAN DO IS TRY MY VERY BEST AND THEN SEE WHAT THE FINAL OUTCOME IS...
ALL I CAN DO IS EVERYTHING I KNOW WOULD BE HUMANLY RIGHT TO DO
AND EITHER THIS POSSIBLE FUTURE LANDLORD SAYS YES TO ME
OR THEY SAY NO TO ME...BUT IT HAS TO BE BY THE BEGINNING OF THIS WEEK AND NO LATER AS TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE RIGHT NOW
i hope i explained all of this correctly for all of you
i often feel like i am losing my mind here from the pressure & the constant stress
i just desire a safe quiet secure place to call my home sweet home
i have been struggling to make this happen for my whole lifetime
but the last 10 to 12 years have been the most brutal for me to have endured...without The Lord i could have never survived any of this at all...
May My Abba-Daddy-Father-God Do The Impossible For Me BECAUSE HE LOVES ME AND HE CARES FOR ME...
and may He grant me a peaceful dwelling place at long last
That Is A Housing Miracle That Gives Him All Of The Glory, Honor, & Praise...
and is a tremendous testimony & witness to what our faith in God can do
even when we are caught between a rock and a hard place with no human way out
and no hope of being rescued in sight without a miraculous supernatural &
divine intervention...
I PRAY FOR MY DADDY GOD'S HELP IN JESUS'S NAME
MAY HE RESTORE ME LIKE JOB IN THE OLD TESTAMENT
AND
RESTORE TO ME ALL THAT THE LOCUSTS HAVE EATEN IN MY LIFE...from Joel in the old testament too...
i have 3 possible local rentals...2 are very perilous and uncertain for me
only one in my eyes would be The True Miracle & Testimony From and For God
that i have been crying out for & fighting in faith for... to come to pass for
way too long now...as far as i can ascertain for right now tonight as i write this...
MAY ONLY THE FATHER'S PERFECT WILL BE DONE IN HIS SON JESUS'S NAME
THE WISEST THING I AM DOING IS BRINGING ALL OF THIS TO HIM
IN FERVENT PRAYER & DEEP INTERCESSION SEEKING HIM FIRST TONIGHT
IN ALL OF MY WAYS
GOD THIS IS TOTALLY YOUR JUDGEMENT CALL 100 % IN MY EYE'S NOW
I COMMIT MY LIFE & WHERE I LIVE NEXT INTO YOUR TWO LOVING HANDS
AND I SURRENDER ALL OF THIS TO YOU BLESSED TRINITY
...I SURRENDER ALL...IN JESUS'S NAME...I SURRENDER ALL...
AMEN AND AMEN XOXOX
{ thank-you everyone for standing with me in faith & in much serious prayer }
and always remember that i love all of you more...xoxox...Amen...xoxox...
JESUS IS LORD
AND TO GOD BE THE GLORY
FOR THE THINGS THAT HE HAS DONE XOXOX
this is the first time i can write to all of you
I have been offered a possible soo beautiful
Miracle Apt in a lovely private 2 family house
but i do not know if this real estate broker is leading me on like they
soo often do regarding my rent subsidy & the acceptance of it by
the landlord & all i can do is pray God reveals the truth to me imediately
At the same time today i was offered 2 possible apts in a building that
has questionable living conditions, a bad reputation, & bad tenants
& it seems everyone keeps moving out & no one stays for very long
{ that is called a revolving door rental situation }
but it would be a roof over my head for now so that i am not homeless
the building is where Pastor Raul my dear friend is the superintendent
& Howard is the landlord/owner who appears very kind but has his hands full...
the ground floor apartment floods when it rains & is very un-safe
the girl who lives there is leaving because she always has to
put sandbags by the front door to try to prevent constant flooding
the 2nd floor apartment is 2 flights of stairs on the outside & i have
a severe lower back injury that makes stairs very difficult for me
and will make my lower back even worse
Pastor Raul & Howard recommend the 2nd floor apt to avoid flooding
My doctor told me to take whatever i can get at this point & then
just keep looking for yet another apt but i am trying to avoid that difficult & stressful scenario
because my finances are very very limited & my health has gone downhill severely from an over 10 year housing search crisis that has pretty much destroyed me in every way...i am barely hanging on...
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOD'S PERFECT WILL IS VERY SOON
AND IF GOD IS GOING TO GIVE ME ""A MIDNIGHT HOUR HOUSING
MIRACLE"" IN THAT LOCAL PRIVATE HOUSE APT IT HAS TO BE CONFIRMED
BY THAT LANDLORD WHO SHOULD ALSO MEET ME IN PERSON & THEN SPECIFIC PAPERWORK MUST BE FILLED OUT IMMEDIATELY ON MY BEHALF
BY THAT LANDLORD FOR THE AGENCY WHO STILL REPRESENTS ME SINCE HURRICANE SANDY TO SHOW SINCERE & HONORABLE INTENTIONS
IF THAT IS NOT DONE THIS COMING WEEK WAY BEFORE THURSDAY
IT WILL BE TOO LATE FOR ME TO RENT IT
IN MY HUMBLE ESTIMATION...
i am trying to make a very wise & responsible decision under extremely very stressful circumstances and tremendous pressure & stress every day now
i have to get this right...i can't afford a mistake here...I JUST CAN'T...
SO I SEEK THE LORD'S HELP NOW TONIGHT IN EARNEST PRAYER...
All i can do is see how circumstances line up with this potential new rental
& how the Hand Of God moves in this whole situation for me
i am getting constant attacks emotionally
and spiritually about all of the decisions i was forced to make in the past & still am while being threatened by soo many real estate brokers landlords and agencies...just because they can and i was and still am always at their mercy...and also...
I keep second guessing myself & it is tormenting me even though i covered everything with soo much prayer to God every single day & searched
tirelessly every day for many many many years now...
i am always soo scared
i often feel like a failure and very much soo all alone
this was not the cross i would have ever chosen to bear
or the trial that i would have ever chosen to endure
but life happens & i do the best that i can to survive
HOW EVER YOU FEEL LED BY THE HOLY SPIRIT TO PRAY FOR ME
PLEASE DO...PLEASE...THANK-YOU SOO MUCH EVERYONE
THIS UN-EXPECTED NEW MIRACLE APT OFFER WOULD BE A FINAL PERMANENT LOCAL MOVE FOR ME UNTIL I GET TO HEAVEN WITH DADDY--GOD & JESUS...
IT IS A MAGNIFICENT ONCE IN A LIFETIME OPPORTUNITY
BUT ONLY GOD CAN GRANT ME PERMISSION TO HAVE IT
AS I HAVE ASKED HIM ONLY THIS...THAT HIS PERFECT WILL BE DONEIN THIS WHOLE MATTER FOR ME...
GOD HAS TO MAKE THIS FINAL DECISION FOR ME BY GRANTING ME
FAVOR WITH EVERYONE INVOLVED ON MY BEHALF AND HELP ME TO MAKE
IT ALL WORK OUT WITH EVERYONE INVOLVED
THIS IS EITHER OF HIM AND AN OPEN DOOR
OR...
IT IS NOT OF HIM AND IS A CLOSED DOOR
ALL I CAN DO IS TRY MY VERY BEST AND THEN SEE WHAT THE FINAL OUTCOME IS...
ALL I CAN DO IS EVERYTHING I KNOW WOULD BE HUMANLY RIGHT TO DO
AND EITHER THIS POSSIBLE FUTURE LANDLORD SAYS YES TO ME
OR THEY SAY NO TO ME...BUT IT HAS TO BE BY THE BEGINNING OF THIS WEEK AND NO LATER AS TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE RIGHT NOW
i hope i explained all of this correctly for all of you
i often feel like i am losing my mind here from the pressure & the constant stress
i just desire a safe quiet secure place to call my home sweet home
i have been struggling to make this happen for my whole lifetime
but the last 10 to 12 years have been the most brutal for me to have endured...without The Lord i could have never survived any of this at all...
May My Abba-Daddy-Father-God Do The Impossible For Me BECAUSE HE LOVES ME AND HE CARES FOR ME...
and may He grant me a peaceful dwelling place at long last
That Is A Housing Miracle That Gives Him All Of The Glory, Honor, & Praise...
and is a tremendous testimony & witness to what our faith in God can do
even when we are caught between a rock and a hard place with no human way out
and no hope of being rescued in sight without a miraculous supernatural &
divine intervention...
I PRAY FOR MY DADDY GOD'S HELP IN JESUS'S NAME
MAY HE RESTORE ME LIKE JOB IN THE OLD TESTAMENT
AND
RESTORE TO ME ALL THAT THE LOCUSTS HAVE EATEN IN MY LIFE...from Joel in the old testament too...
i have 3 possible local rentals...2 are very perilous and uncertain for me
only one in my eyes would be The True Miracle & Testimony From and For God
that i have been crying out for & fighting in faith for... to come to pass for
way too long now...as far as i can ascertain for right now tonight as i write this...
MAY ONLY THE FATHER'S PERFECT WILL BE DONE IN HIS SON JESUS'S NAME
THE WISEST THING I AM DOING IS BRINGING ALL OF THIS TO HIM
IN FERVENT PRAYER & DEEP INTERCESSION SEEKING HIM FIRST TONIGHT
IN ALL OF MY WAYS
GOD THIS IS TOTALLY YOUR JUDGEMENT CALL 100 % IN MY EYE'S NOW
I COMMIT MY LIFE & WHERE I LIVE NEXT INTO YOUR TWO LOVING HANDS
AND I SURRENDER ALL OF THIS TO YOU BLESSED TRINITY
...I SURRENDER ALL...IN JESUS'S NAME...I SURRENDER ALL...
AMEN AND AMEN XOXOX
{ thank-you everyone for standing with me in faith & in much serious prayer }
and always remember that i love all of you more...xoxox...Amen...xoxox...
JESUS IS LORD
AND TO GOD BE THE GLORY
FOR THE THINGS THAT HE HAS DONE XOXOX
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