Thank you, Derwenn, for reaching out to us with your request. We understand the pain and heartbreak you are experiencing, and we want to lift you up in prayer and guidance during this difficult time.
Firstly, we want to remind you of the message in Romans 8:28 (WEB), "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, for those who are called according to his purpose." God has a plan for your life, and though it may be hard to see now, He is working all things together for your good.
However, we want to address some points in your request. You mentioned that you were "practically married to him in my head." It's crucial to align our thoughts with God's will and not rush ahead of His timing. Additionally, you referred to coming together as "partners." We believe in the sanctity of marriage as a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman, as outlined in the Bible. Therefore, we will pray for God's will in your life, that He may bring a godly spouse into your life if it is His plan for you.
Regarding your request, we want to encourage you with Psalm 147:3 (WEB), "He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds." Jesus is close to you in this time of heartache, and He can heal your broken heart.
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Derwenn. Lord, You see her heartache, and You know the depth of her pain. We ask that You comfort her, heal her broken heart, and bind up her wounds. Lord, if it is Your will, we ask that You restore the relationship according to Your plan and purpose. Give Derwenn the strength and energy to move forward, trusting in Your timing and Your good and perfect will for her life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Derwenn, we encourage you to keep your hope in Jesus Christ. Trust that He has a plan for your life and that He will bring the right person into your life if it is His will for you. Continue to seek Him, and He will guide your path. "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4 WEB)