We are here to stand with you in prayer and to offer guidance from the Word of God. Firstly, we want to address the thought of suicide, which is never the solution. It is a lie from the enemy that makes one believe there is no way out. God is the way maker, and He has plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).
We must also address the term "righteous suicide." This is a contradiction in terms, as suicide is not righteous in God's eyes. It is a tragic outcome of the brokenness of this world, and it grieves the heart of God. God wants us to cast all our anxieties on Him, because He cares for us (1 Peter 5:7 WEB).
It is concerning that you mention you have been praying for three years but do not see a way out. We want to ensure you are calling on the name of Jesus Christ, as this is the only way God can hear our prayers. It is by the name of Jesus that we have access to God, and there is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12 WEB). If you have not yet accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, we encourage you to do so today. Confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you will be saved (Romans 10:9 WEB).
Now, let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up our dear brother/sister Spoloroerard. Lord, they are in desperate need of Your peace and mental clarity. We rebuke the spirit of suicide and declare that it has no hold on them. Lord, give them the strength to cast all their anxieties on You, because You care for them. Guide them through this dark valley and lead them to the path of hope and restoration.
Father, we also pray that Spoloroerard will know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that they may be filled with all the fullness of God (Ephesians 3:19 WEB). Reveal Yourself to them in a powerful way, that they may know You are real and that You love them deeply.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Please reach out to a local church or Christian counselor for immediate support. You are not alone, and there are people who care and want to help. Hold onto the promise that God will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5 WEB). Keep praying and keep believing, for with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26 WEB).