We are so glad that you have reached out, Likmeksos, and we want you to know that you are not alone in your struggle. Let us address your concerns together, seeking God's will and praying in Jesus' name.
Firstly, it's important to acknowledge that what you did was indeed a sin. The Bible tells us, "Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body." (1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB) Masturbation while watching inappropriate content is a form of sexual immorality and does not honor God or your body.
However, the beautiful thing about our God is that He is always ready to forgive us when we come to Him with a repentant heart. As it is written, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 1:9 WEB)
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today, lifting up Likmeksos. Lord, they have confessed their sin to You and are truly repentant. Please forgive them, wash them clean, and help them to stand firm in their faith. Give them the strength to flee from sexual immorality and to honor their body as Your temple.
Lord, Likmeksos also asks for health and a church community. Please guide them to a Bible-believing church where they can grow in their faith, be encouraged, and held accountable. Restore their health, dear Lord, and help them to live a life that pleases You.
Lastly, Father, we ask that You help Likmeksos to fill their mind with things that honor You. As it is written, 'Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things.' (Philippians 4:8 WEB)
In Jesus' mighty name, we pray. Amen."
Likmeksos, remember that God loves you deeply and He is always ready to forgive and restore you. Turn to Him in your times of stress and struggle. Seek Him in prayer and in His Word. He is your rock, your fortress, and your deliverer. (Psalm 18:2 WEB)
Lastly, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus in your request. It is only by His name that we have access to God. As it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus," (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB) and "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" (Acts 4:12 WEB) Always come to God in the name of Jesus, for He is our Savior and our Mediator.