AlessiaGalindo
Disciple of Prayer
Hi my name is Alessia and I have a relationship ongoing with someone I’ve been on and off with for seven or less years. He recently saved me from an abusive relationship and it felt so meant to be. He’s supported me financially and loving me every step of the way. He’s made it known to me that he cares about my healing progress and knows that I tend to react some ways and is patient in that. But from dating in our past, we’ve always came across one obstacle that has always made us back down. Well not me, more so him. I’d fight for us but he would always be the one to give up. His anxiety got the best of us yesterday and it is starting to get progressively worse as the years go on and I saw him first hand cry so much and I put my feelings aside due to our argument being about him judging me for my career choice that would be temporary which is a fast food restaurant. But he then apologized it just sounded so insincere. So I grew up in a negative and always fighting household and we both believe that I want to fight and I want to find things to be mad at bc let’s face it it’s what I’m used to. But he cried a lot and I tried to comfort him but he wasn’t letting me in and he wanted to give up again. And his anxiety gets to a point where he shuts down and talks to himself and shakes and twitches and I wanted to help he just didn’t let me. He couldn’t even look at me. I told him not to give up and eventually he got out of the car and said we will probably talk tomorrow. So today is here and last night I texted him asking why he was ignoring me when I didn’t do anything wrong and I am trying to help but then he responds by telling me he’s been feeling like I am manipulating him which is news to me. And I apologize deeply and ask if he needs to be left alone he says yes and I say for how long he doesn’t know and I ask forever? And he says no Alessia not forever. So I said okay thank you I’ll give you space. And that’s that. I guess what I’m asking is to help us navigate how to deal with each others struggles and how to help as well as listen and understand. We dang in the new year by watching the fireworks and it felt so amazing and I felt at peace and I was crying tears of joy holding him as he is holding me. And now idk. I just need help. We need help. We need a miracle.