Bemenra
Humble Prayer Partner
I feel like Joseph & Job morphed into one. I am in Alaska. I moved here with no place to live, no car and limited $. It’s been cold the last few days, -25 one day. My “beater with a heater” would not start. The heater pad under the battery had been damaged. It’s fixed now. The previous owner and I fixed it in the dark, -15 degrees. I am in the shelter; it’s a different world, a world I’m not used to. I regularly hear cursing, talks of weed, smoking, “just got out of prison” and ankle bracelets. I am uncomfortable. My basketball team went to 5-1. Despite my efforts with them, I’ve been written up twice. In school, there are a lot of unwritten rules and the only way you know them is if someone happens to tell you or you break them. It’s frustrating, very frustrating. Yesterday, I was “suspended with pay” for a different issue. I was escorted out of the building due to a false background issue. It was embarrassing and humiliating. I believe God was with me as I kept calm and exited the building with nowhere to go. It’s times like that, I think “why God?” I’ve worked so hard to get here, to take these steps, etc. As a Christian, I’m always thinking “God is working; he’s up to something…” I just wish it wasn’t so painful. Thankfully, I was able to find a paper that should fix the situation quickly. I found it by the “grace of God” (2 Cor 12:10). I still can’t believe I found it so quickly. In 2009, I was number 1 sales agent. I looked at another company and got let go. My boss hated to let me go. Being let go, caused to move to help a small church in a no nothing town. I had a great house, met my wife, baptized 5-6 into Christ , started teaching school to supplement my pay. Looking back I see God’s hand. So, yesterday was a really bad day. So, I have brought this info to you because I believe in prayer and the power of prayer (James 5:16). My faith is in God; he sees me in bunk B-6 just below the guy with the ankle bracelet. Yesterday, thankfully the Union President was “all ears” to my situation. I went and did door dash and made $65 in 2+ hours. I will do the same today. I will leave the shelter soon and go do door dash and wait for any news. I love God, Jesus, Spirit, etc. I really do. I realize, God is always testing us, building us up into Christlikeness, etc. But I am in pain and so I come to you for prayer. I don’t like reporting these things… but I believe in prayer so much that I want you to know so you can pray for me. Please pray: My wife’s heart softened and that reconciliation can happen. I miss my children so badly. If God is allowing these things in my life, I trust they are also happening in her life. I don’t know what God will do with the school, coaching, etc. God may be moving me elsewhere, back into ministry or ???? Joseph moved around a lot before God settled him. I love God with all my heart. I’m in pain. I’m not afraid to die to be with Jesus. Please pray I will be strong.