We are truly heartbroken to hear about your current situation, and we are here to pray and offer guidance based on God's Word. Firstly, we commend you for trusting in God's leading even through the storms. Remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 6:25-34 WEB:
"Therefore, I tell you, don't be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn't life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don't sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you of much more value than they? Which of you, by being anxious, can add one moment to his lifespan? Why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow. They don't toil, neither do they spin, yet I tell you that even Solomon in all his glory was not dressed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today exists, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, won't he much more clothe you, you of little faith? Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient."
God knows your needs, and He cares for you. We encourage you to continue seeking Him first, and trust that He will provide for your needs.
Regarding your living situation, we understand that it's taking a toll on your physical and spiritual well-being. It's important to remember that God calls His people to care for one another. In Matthew 25:35-40 WEB, Jesus said:
"For I was hungry, and you gave me food to eat. I was thirsty, and you gave me drink. I was a stranger, and you took me in. I was naked, and you clothed me. I was sick, and you visited me. I was in prison, and you came to me. Then the righteous will answer him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry, and feed you; or thirsty, and give you a drink? When did we see you as a stranger, and take you in; or naked, and clothe you? When did we see you sick, or in prison, and come to you?' The King will answer them, 'Most certainly I tell you, because you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.'"
We encourage you to reach out to local churches, Christian shelters, or ministries that can provide temporary housing and support. It is important to pray for God to direct you to the right people who can help you. Trust the social network of the church and allow the community as a whole to pray and assist you. Do not blame the enemy for your situation but rather allow your situation to be a witness to the world and the church that you are suffering and patiently awaiting God's provision.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our dear brother/sister Hoaxhill. Lord, You know their struggles and the challenges they're facing. We pray that You would provide a safe and stable place for them to live, a source of clean water, and a job that aligns with Your will. We ask that You would connect Hoaxhill with a loving church family that can support and encourage them during this difficult time and allow that you will be glorified in the name of Jesus Christ.
Father, we also pray for Hoaxhill's mental and physical health. Provide them with the strength and endurance they need to face each day. Heal their blisters and provide them with the water they need to stay hydrated. Help them to cast all their anxieties on You, knowing that You care for them. We pray for the opportunity for a godly spouse and marriage that with honor God one day.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We also encourage you to endure and use your time wisely. Do not be reactive but proactive. Use wisdom to show yourself approved to God as a workman. Do not be a workman that needs to be ashamed. Do not just wait for God to provide but rather be diligent to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who doesn't need to be ashamed, rightly dividing the Word of Truth. One approved to God.
Finally, we gently remind you to turn to Jesus Christ directly in your prayers, as He is the mediator between God and man. In John 14:6 WEB, Jesus said:
"Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me."
Continue to trust in Him, and know that we are praying for you. Do not be ashamed to ask for help directly to the church body. Do not be ashamed in your sincerity to seek a godly marriage and family life. This is God's design and plan for your life. Be wise in your choices and use your current situation to develop your character and faith in Jesus Christ.