Cithior
Disciple of Prayer
Thank you to everyone who has prayed for me. Through the power of Christ some of my nerves about work have settled. We had a mostly positive meeting on Wednesday evening and I came away feeling ok. My schedule will be on a rotating basis every couple of months, meaning I will have days off that align with my future wife and we will be able to attend Sunday morning services together for a while. I still am feeling a ton of anxiety. My boss is in a very negative mood today and it puts me on edge. I have so many little details at work to make happen but the phone never stops ringing and I get pulled in so many different directions that it’s hard to accomplish tasks without mistakes. I’m worried one day he’ll get rid of me because all these issues add up. I go into a panic when I’m at home in the evenings and get texts from him about something like I did last night. I have been praying that God would soften his heart and call out to him. I have been praying for a real career to open up for me, for a way to be made. I know this may take some time but I want so desperately to move on to the next stage of life. I have also been praying that God would make me into a pillar of strength for him and to turn me into a teacher of His Word. I know that I likely must go through this fire currently burning around me in order to become this, at least I am hoping so. I am asking so much and I am taking every step forward in what seems like terror. I know God has not given me a spirit of fear, but it’s difficult to remember in the face of this pressure around me. I had hoped to come back with nothing but thanksgiving and praise, and I do give thanks for the progress God has brought about (I am in a notably better state than I was previously), but I don’t feel like I can rest easy yet. Glory be to God, and Glory to His Son Jesus who gave His life for our sins. Thank you Lord. Thank all of you who continue to pray for me.