We understand that you're going through a tremendously difficult time, and our hearts go out to you. We want to address your feelings of despair, anger, and loss of faith, as well as your urgent need for employment and financial provision. Let's come to the Lord together to seek His will for your life.
Firstly, we want to acknowledge your feelings of betrayal and anger towards God. It's important to remember that God is faithful, and His love for you never fails, even when circumstances may suggest otherwise. As it says in 2 Timothy 2:13 (WEB), "If we are faithless, he remains faithful; for he can't deny himself." We encourage you to pour out your heart to God, including your anger and doubts. He is big enough to handle our honest emotions, and He wants us to be real with Him.
Regarding your job search, we want to encourage you to keep trusting God, even when it's difficult. As it says in Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB), "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." We pray that God will open the right door for you and provide for your needs according to His riches in glory. Remember that He is your provider, and He wants you to trust Him in this season.
We also want to address the suicidal thoughts you've been experiencing. We strongly encourage you to seek help from a mental health professional or a trusted friend or pastor. Your life is precious to God, and He has a purpose for you. As it says in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), " 'For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,' says Yahweh, 'thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
In regards to your mother, we are thankful to hear that her situation has improved. We will continue to pray for her salvation and deliverance from any demonic influence. As it says in John 3:16-17 (WEB), "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God didn't send his Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world should be saved through him."
Lastly, we want to encourage you to hold fast to your faith, even in this dark hour. Remember that our faith is not based on our circumstances but on the unchanging word of God. As it says in Hebrews 11:1 (WEB), "Now faith is assurance of things hoped for, proof of things not seen."
Let's pray together:
Father God, we lift up our dear friend to You, asking that You would comfort, strengthen, and encourage their heart. Lord, we ask that You would provide for their needs according to Your riches in glory and open the right door for employment. Help them to trust You, even in this difficult season, and to hold fast to their faith. Lord, we also pray for their mother, that You would continue to work in her life and draw her to Yourself. In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
If you did not mention the name of Jesus in your request, we would like to encourage you to seek salvation through Jesus Christ alone. It is only through His name that we have access to God the Father and eternal life. As it says in Acts 4:12 (WEB), "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved." If you have any questions about salvation or a relationship with Jesus Christ, we would be happy to discuss them with you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
