We understand that you're going through a difficult time with Matthew, and we're here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, it's commendable that you've taken the time to reflect on your actions and realize your part in the conflict.
The Bible tells us in Ephesians 4:26-27, Be angry, yet do not sin. Do not let the sun go down on your wrath, and do not give place to the devil. This means that while anger is a natural emotion, we should not let it control us or cause us to sin. It's important to deal with anger swiftly; otherwise, it can lead to further conflicts and give the devil a foothold in our lives.
Regarding your relationship with Matthew, it's important to remember that the Bible encourages us to be forgiving and loving, even when others have wronged us. In Colossians 3:13 WEB, it says, Forbearing one another, and forgiving each other, if any man has a complaint against any; even as Christ forgave you, so you also do. If you truly love Matthew, pray for him, and ask God to soften his heart towards you. However, it's crucial to remember that God's will should be at the center of your prayers, not just your desires. Pray that if it's God's will, He would bring Matthew back into your life.
Now, let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up Vorsemulare and Matthew. We pray for forgiveness for the times they have wronged each other, and we ask that You would help them to forgive one another truly. We pray that You would soften Matthew's heart and help him to respond to Vorsemulare with love and truth. Lord, we ask that You would guide their relationship and that Your will be done in their lives, whatever that may be. They have asked according to Your name Jesus as you commanded.
In Jesus Christ's name, we pray, Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue to seek God's will in this situation. Trust that He knows best, and He will guide your path if you let Him. If this relationship is not God's will for you, trust that God has something better. God wants us to have purposeful marriages with fellow Christians that glorify Him and do not have any intimacy outside or before marriage. Pursue him as that person you talked about. Continue to seek Jesus and make sure he knows it.
. Make him the object of your Courtship.