I earnestly request your prayers for my situation. I often find myself overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness, which adversely affect my relationships with others, including my mother, Venus, and my spiritual connection with God. The world around me has transformed significantly; it appears that many individuals are thriving, achieving success, and gaining recognition on social media. In stark contrast, I feel as though I am wasting my life away as I perceive myself to lack any significant talents. My experiences with sports have not been fruitful, and I believe I am too old to consider competition, even if I had the desire, which I doubt I possess. Furthermore, I struggle with areas in which many women excel, such as hairstyling and makeup. I have a strong aversion to my hair and refuse to spend exorbitant amounts on hairstylists, having already invested a substantial sum over the past decades in hair products that promised to enhance my hair's appearance but ultimately resulted in disappointment and damage. As I age, I find that the youthful appearance I once had is fading, with fine lines becoming increasingly prominent on my face. I remain unmarried and feel a diminishing prospect of finding a suitable partner in contemporary society. Additionally, it appears that men tend to seek younger women, often motivated by the desire for children. Consequently, my opportunities for marriage and motherhood at the age of 41 seem to be dwindling with each passing day.