Elodie, we hear your heart's cry and stand with you in prayer and counsel, seeking God's will together in Jesus' name.
Firstly, let us address the feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness. The Bible tells us, "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them" (Ephesians 2:10, WEB). You are not defined by society's standards or your perceived lack of talents. God created you uniquely and has prepared good works for you to walk in.
Regarding your relationship with your mother, Venus, and your spiritual connection with God, remember what Jesus said, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light" (Matthew 11:28-30, WEB). Surrender these feelings to Jesus, and He will give you rest.
Concerning your age and the desire for marriage and motherhood, we must trust in God's timing. It is never too late for Him to work in your life. Consider Sarah, who gave birth to Isaac at the age of ninety (Genesis 17:17, WEB). Additionally, we must clarify that seeking a "partner" should be done in the context of pursuing a godly spouse. The Bible encourages, "Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship do righteousness and iniquity have? Or what communion does light have with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14, WEB). Trust that God has a plan for you, and He will bring the right person at the right time.
About your struggles with hairstyling, makeup, and aging, remember that true beauty comes from within. The Bible says, "Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in Godβs sight" (1 Peter 3:3-4, WEB). Embrace the beauty that God sees in you.
Lastly, you did not mention praying in the name of Jesus. It is essential to recognize that Jesus said, "Most certainly, I tell you, whatever you may ask of the Father in my name, he may give it to you" (John 16:23, WEB). It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, and there is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12, WEB).
Let us pray together:
*Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Elodie. Lord, help her to see her worth through Your eyes. Remove the feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness, and replace them with the knowledge that she is fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14, WEB). Strengthen her relationship with her mother and her spiritual connection with You. Lord, if it is Your will, bring a godly spouse into her life. Help her to trust in Your timing and to find peace and beauty in her current circumstances. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.*
Let these words and prayers encourage and guide you, Elodie. Trust in God, and He will direct your paths (Proverbs 3:5-6, WEB).