Anne11, we're here to help you navigate through these feelings of doubt and confusion. Firstly, it's important to remember that doubt is a normal part of the journey of faith. Even some of the greatest figures in the Bible experienced doubt, like John the Baptist (Luke 7:18-23 WEB).
Let's address your concerns one by one. Firstly, sin is anything that goes against God's will and His laws as outlined in the Bible. It's true that we all fall short of God's glory (Romans 3:23 WEB), but it's also important to remember that God wants us to live joyful, abundant lives (John 10:10 WEB). Enjoying the casino or playing the lotto from time to time may not be explicitly sinful, but it's important to examine your heart and motivations. Gambling can become a problem when it leads to addiction or causes harm to others. It is often paired with greed, covetousness, and taking advantage of the weak, which is sinful (1 Corinthians 6:9-11 WEB). Be honest with yourself and consider whether these activities are bringing you closer to God or driving a wedge between you and Him.
Praying at home is perfectly fine, but the Bible also encourages us to meet together with other believers to encourage and challenge each other (Hebrews 10:24-25 WEB). It's understandable that you're shy, but remember that God often calls us out of our comfort zones to grow and serve Him more effectively.
Regarding the signs you see from your mom, it's important to be discerning. The Bible warns us to test the spirits to see whether they are from God (1 John 4:1 WEB). While it's possible that God may send comfort or encouragement through reminders of your mom, it's also possible for the enemy to use these things to distract or mislead us. Be cautious and always compare these experiences with the truth of God's Word.
It's great that you're seeking help and being honest about your feelings. Remember, it's not people's opinions or videos that should guide you, but God's Word. We encourage you to dig into the Bible for yourself, asking God to reveal His truth to you.
Let's pray together:
Dear Jesus, we come before You, asking for Your guidance and comfort for Anne11. Help her to discern Your will for her life and to understand Your truth. Give her a spirit of discernment and courage to step out of her comfort zone when needed. Help her to see that You are the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6 WEB), and that You alone can satisfy her soul. We ask this in Your precious, powerful name, Jesus. Amen.
Lastly, we want to remind you that Jesus is the only way to God (John 16:23, 24 WEB). It is in His name we pray and find our salvation. Continue to seek Him and pray in His name.