prayman
Humble Prayer Partner
Hi folks after 25 years of being a christian of building a prayer life,fasting life and stepping forward to minister, i look back at what i believed god was calling me into and my entire life has been impacted that i see it as if god has deserted me and my family, that all that i built my life on the word that i sat under ,under various ministries seems to have done nothing for me, there is too much evidence staring me in the face, family have deserted us and as for the church the experience has been such a bad one that i do not in any manner way and form want to be involved or even found in any kind of church, i do not see a way forward in being a christian god does not seem to be around ,yes i know what the word says but when i look at 25 years of desiring to serve god and when i stepped out to serve the furnace has gotten to hot, and i now realize that i am not ministry material, the effect on my family has been negative it has effected my marriage,my finances right up to my daughters education,turned my family against me , led my church to desert me i just do not see any point in carrying on purueing a god who has not answered my prayers, life everyday has no purpose, no point i do not even want to get out of bed anymore to face a day that is just one miserable existance after another the days just role into one another, my prayer closet and the reading of the word is just an empty experience i find no joy in my life,if you folk want to pray for me plse go ahead but i have heard it all from every which way but nothing has made the difference thanx for all your prayers